Nicholas’s POV
"Anyone else heard the shower run all night in Nicholas’s room? Isn’t that boy a bit too strange?" Adrian’s words echoed in my ears and my hands trembled gently.
"Strange? I think he’s intriguing." That was Roman’s voice.
"I mean, don’t you think he’s hiding something? He’s always locked up in there doing heaven knows what. Why is he even here again?" Adrian asked, turning to the stairs and the moment his eyes met mine, he went rigid for a few seconds.
Pretending I didn’t hear his words, I moved past him and made my way to the door, my hand hovering over the doorknob.
I wanted to say something. To tell them to mind their fucking business. But I thought against it and walked out silently as I made my way out of the house.
Luckily for me, Elijah didn’t show up in school today, and I was able to walk around without anyone following me around like a lost puppy. The hours at the university dragged by but the moment classes ended, my wolf twitched inside me.
Not again.
I rushed to the restroom before I collapsed in front of everyone and the moment I locked the door, my legs gave way. I reached for my bag, managed to reach my suppressants and poured a lot of the pills into my mouth.
I slapped my hand over my mouth to stop the groan that was about to leave my throat but the next second, I was throwing up in the toilet. That seemed to do the trick as I slumped against the wall, breathing heavily until I felt okay again.
I knew it was time for me to take the storekeeper’s advice, no matter how embarrassing it might have sounded.
I washed my face after leaving the restroom and made my way out of the university as I boarded a cab to the busy part of the city. I knew I had seen a sex store once when I came with my mom to get her wedding dress.
And just as I thought, it was right there, by the less busy side of the road. I held my bag over my face so no one would recognize me and walked into the store.
"No need to be ashamed." The lady at the counter said and my ears turned red. "What are you here for?"
"I— I’ll just search around myself." I muttered in embarrassment and she smiled sweetly as I walked to the other side.
How could I not be ashamed? It was a sex store for crying out loud.
By the time I was done, I had a medium-sized dildo, vibrator and lube in my hands as I returned to the counter. Anyone could see how embarrassed I was by doing this.
The lady kept staring at me with a teasing smile and it made me even more conscious of myself. When she handed me my "packaged goods", I immediately stuffed them into my bag.
"Come again." She said with a grin as she waved at me playfully but I immediately rushed out and boarded a cab back to the estate.
Because I opened my bag to pay the driver, I forgot to zip it shut as I returned to the mansion. The moment I opened the door, I bumped into a strong figure, and I stumbled backwards while my bag slipped from my hand.
Everything in the bag spilled out, including the dildo, vibrator and lube. Horror took over me as I stared at Adrian whose eyes were fixed on my "toys".
"I’m sorry." I mumbled shakily as I shoved everything into my bag and got up.
Why the fuck was he home now? Why did he have to bump into me? Fuck!
"Wait—"
I froze when he held me back, his gaze darkened as he stared at my bag then at me.
"Sorry." I muttered again, my face red with embarrassment as I ran up the stairs and slammed the door shut in panic.
He saw them. He saw everything. He would suspect me even more after this.
"Damn it!" I groaned in frustration as I collapsed to my bed, burying my face in my pillow and screaming into it.
The way his gaze had darkened when he stared at me though, it made my stomach churn in a weird way and I couldn’t help but wonder what was going through his head at that moment.
I skipped dinner that night, again as I paced around my room in worry. I didn’t know when to use the sex toys. Before the pain? During the pain? Or after?
I glanced at myself in the mirror as I realized I had lost weight. My stomach growled with hunger and all I had to do was go downstairs and eat. But I couldn’t risk it.
Not with my hormones all over the place. My wolf could snap any moment and I’d be in trouble.
I sat up all night waiting for my wolf to go insane as usual. And the moment I felt him stir, I knew it was time to "fuck myself" as the storekeeper said.
I felt embarrassed doing this but knowing I had no choice, I washed up the dildo and then applied lube over it just as my legs began to buckle in pain.
"Just a moment..." I muttered to my wolf even though he never listened to me. Just as I coated my fingers with lube, pain struck and I groaned.
I couldn’t give up anyway as I got on my knees and slid two of my fingers into my ass, whimpering at the pleasure that suddenly coursed through me. The pain literally reduced so much that I wondered if it was ever there.
So this was what he wanted. Pleasure to overcome the pain.
My fingers had stretched my hole so much that I was biting down on my arm to stop myself from moaning so loud.
When I pulled my fingers out, my cock was already so hard that it started to hurt. Every sense of reasoning or shame I had already flown out the window as I climbed over the dildo and sank down on it.
"A-ah..." I cried out softly as I gripped the sheets tightly. I moved up and down slowly and gently until I got used to the size.
Closing my eyes, the only thing I could see was the four brothers watching me with lust in their eyes while I bounced on the dildo. The squishing sounds filled the room and my moans grew louder before I could control them as I bounced even faster.
"F-fuck yes— fuck me please..." I begged even though the room was empty and it was just me fucking myself.
But it felt like I was being fucked by someone instead, his hands on my waist as he bounced me on his dick.
My legs were shaking as I grabbed the headboard for support but I didn’t slow down. I was close... so fucking close...
"Please—" I begged over and over, my legs nearly giving up on me but I wasn’t done. Not when I was so close.
At the same time, I reached for my cock and started to stroke it at a fast rhythm until I could barely think anymore.
"Oh fuck... f-fuck... I’m gonna c-cum" I cried out, stroking my cock as my vision darkened a bit. "Please, I’m cumming... oh god—"
With a groan, cum burst out of my cock as I orgasmed hard, moans spewing out of my mouth and I immediately placed my hand over it to stop moaning so loudly.
"Fuck..." I whimpered as I collapsed to the bed, the dildo still in my hole. I couldn’t believe I actually just did that.
And I was loud as fuck. What was I thinking?
The pain was gone completely. My body trembled from cumming so hard, and all I could do was lie still while slowly coming down from my high.
I froze when I heard breathing coming from the door again just like that night.
Not again.
This time, I rushed out of bed and stumbled, but I didn’t stop until I pulled the door open.