JAY’S POV:
Our class with Ms. Smith ended, but the heavy atmosphere lingered like smoke.
Classmates dodged my gaze as I packed up, shuffling past with stone-cold faces.
Oh no—they hate me now.
What do I do?
Fuck this, Fernandez!
I slipped out with the crowd, but they kept their distance.
Damn it.
I spotted Felix and remembered the chocolates in my bag.
Maybe these will fix it.
“Felix!” I barked, closing in.
No turn.
“Felix!”
I caught up and grabbed his arm—he yanked it away.
“Hey… want some chocolate? I’ve got plenty—”
“Sorry, Jay. Gotta go,” he muttered, serious as stone, then bolted.
Tears burned, but I swallowed them.
No. I’m not weak.
I won’t quit.
Keifer glared from afar, eyes like daggers.
My heart twisted.
I felt my heart ache a bit.
I walked home alone.
Aries was already home, feet kicked up on the coffee table, chilling with the TV like he hadn’t shoved me into a snake-filled lake.
Ugh.
I rolled my eyes and bolted upstairs.I locked my door, sank onto the bed, and stared into nothing.
Thoughts spun wild: We were finally getting along, and now the truth hits.
God, I’ve prayed every day—make it count.
A hot shower later, I slipped into comfy clothes, lit a cigarette, and stared at my phone.
Ci-N.
My last shot.
Should I call?
Will he snap?
Ignore me?
Ok.
Whatever happens, it happens.
I’ll call him.
Ringing… ringing… ringing…
It connected.
“Hello?” Ci-N’s voice rasped low, like he was nursing wounds.
“Ci-N, I’m Jay Jay. Why weren’t you coming to school?” My voice was a bit cold, but kind.
“I’m sick, Jay. Might be back tomorrow.”
“Oh. Get well soon.”
“Bye, Jay.”
“Bye.”
Click.
What if he finds out?
Ignores me?
Hates me?
Why do I always carry someone else’s sins?
I’m losing my love.
💔 No!
If I lose him, I lose everything.
I won’t let it happen!Please, God—change him.
Or give me the strength to change.
Please.
🙏🏻
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I’m sorry.
I know I’ve been ghosting you all this time.
I’m very sorry.
I was going through hell.
Please, believe me.
I hope you all understand.
And you guys think I may stop this book in the middle, but no.
I will never leave you guys.
But I may go offline sometimes.
From now, I will write whenever I’m free.
I can’t upload daily but I’ll try