"Did you say something?"
Our driver asks as I
take all the control
of the body back. Vrika’s improving mood over being
responsible
for my sightlines quickly fades.
"Just thinking out loud. Nothing worth repeating."
Truth be told, in the
corners of my soul
that I don’t even let Vrika into? I’ve thought more than once that it would be simpler just to make... ’mistakes’. To
crawl out of holes I dig myself
rather than running around and hopping over them, like the fox in the phone game.
I’ve enjoyed some freedom away from what was
expected of me as a Princess
. I’m clearly going to do my best for the
remnants
of Helene, no matter what. So why shouldn’t I just get involved with someone I’m attracted to?
> Inequality. That’s really the only thing slipping me up. Being in her debt when the only leverage I have over her is that she actually... seems to like me for some inexplicable reason. It’s not one I want to use. I’ve never used someone’s apparent love against them. It’s not stable enough of a threat, because they can fall out of love at any time and I’d have nothing over them. Nothing. The smell of that old coffee the whole way here has turned me off of it, today. And I don’t need more time sitting in my head. I just need to get moving. But with snakes for tails! <