Because I’d seen them when eating with Anise, the idea of
disposable cutlery
had entered my mind. So, I purchased a multi-pack of knives, spoons, and forks.
With this, I will be able to eat like a more
civilized
person. Modern sensibilities aside, the ease and variety on offer for
almost anything
one can imagine is mind boggling.
In that same regard, I’d compared the few different
solid feeling
water bottles that the store had and picked one... mostly because it had a pretty,
blue plastic
coloration. There were just so many choices from a mere single store!
Next came the bar of scented soap and bottle of lavender shampoo I’d felt
compelled
to purchase. After one experience with the motel’s harsh,
chemical-smelling
offerings...
The
combination package
promised ’salon quality’ results - and while I doubted it would match yesterday’s experience, it had to be better than
what still waited
in the bathtub rack.
"A small indulgence... no big deal."
I
rationalized aloud
in the very same way I’d done back when placing them in the grocery basket. That entire aisle of
hygiene and beauty goods
was a nice place.
A
dangerous
place, for someone like me.
"Brush, comb, hand mirror... maybe I should have just bought that whole kit?"
The only reason I did not was because it seemed
excessive
. I don’t even know how to apply makeup yet... or if I
need
to learn.
But there was something which I did want to try and handle
on my own
, which is why the last item in the bag was a package of
assorted hair ties
in various colors.
> I only have the two from yesterday. What if they break? Then what? I know, it wasn’t you that time. It wasn’t the system either. And she’s the only one who I could have sent it to. That was it. <
For once, it didn’t urge me into thinking
differently
. My wolf merely took my side on this matter.
This time
.
Because it was learning to
accept
that I was stubborn... and
still hurt
.