“Unghh… My head-“ everywhere felt sore at once. Note to self. I am not ready for ovu; that’s for sure. Did she even put the tip in? I don’t think so. Dammit, to be defeated so easily is disappointing. To think there was a time I could go days having sex nonstop, and now I can barely make it past 3 hours. It’s official, I'm a has-been.
Milestone progress:
Prolific producer (1)
From 3.5L/ 10L -> 5.0L/ 10
I wafted the purple screen away. Thanks, I guess. Now that I think about it. 1.5L is a lot. Thank god I have pregnancy turned off because there is no way I'm failing to get someone pregnant with that much cum coming out of me. Maybe that’s why I always feel so tired?
“mMMMmmm. Yes please…….more…..cake”
My head snapped down towards Luka. She was sleeping soundly next to me, and by the sounds of it, having a very nice dream. It would be a shame if someone ruined that.
“Hey, sleepy. Time to wake up” I gently pressed a finger against Luka’s soft cheek. Instinctively, she swatted it away and rolled deeper into the bed sheets.
“5 more minutes, please”, she mumbled under her sleep breath. I rolled my eyes and nudged her again seriously. "Aren't you a bit too old to be doing this? Come on, wake up now." I poked her more and more until finally she opened up her eyes.
“woah….Big....eye” she said sleepily as she sat herself out of bed. Luka gently rubbed her eyes and blinked them at me.
“Good morning, sleepyhead,” I teased. Luka's eyes suddenly widened. As the memories of our Time together hit her.
“Y..y…you”
“Has it come back to you?” I chuckled as I sidled up close to her; immediately, she backed away.
“Don’t come any closer!” She yelled. I paused where I was. “ That’s not nice luka. Especially after I got rid of your tattoo
“My tattoo?” She said with confusion. I nodded. “Take a look”, I said, gesturing to her sticky body. She tentatively looked away from me toward her body, where, lo and behold, her tattoo was missing.
“No… that's not possible… It’s gone. I can't believe it's gone!” Tears welled up in her eyes as her body relaxed. The burden she’d been carrying around for years was gone in one moment.
“The pain oh God, I didn’t even notice but there is no pain! THERE IS NO PAIN!” she bellowed as she wept buckets and buckets of tears. Every tear represented each day she carried this pain. I pulled her in close, and she immediately hugged me.
“Thank you! Thank you, thank you!” Those words left her mouth over and over, so much so that I started to feel bad. It was easy for me, even enjoyable, to fate-break her. But for her, she must have felt trapped, alone in her body. Nobody was able to truly help her. And she endured it all for Rae. To love someone so much that you are willing to endure hell for them. Rae doesn't know how lucky she is.
“It’s okay now luka,” I said as she cried onto my shoulder.
“You dont understand. It's been so long. So damn long since ive felt myself. 18 years, 18 years raising Rae, watching her grow up, watching her struggle with her tattoo and... Oh god.....OH GOD”
She started weeping again. “The things ive said to her, the things ive done. Rae. My daughter. I dont deserve this. I-”
“No! Dont start, dont do that to yourself.” I cut in. She has no reason to blame herself for what happened. I wont let her. “Luka, the person you should blame for this is Alexia for giving you that damn tattoo. Now that you're free, it's obvious the real you would never have even thought of neglecting Rae like that, so don’t blame yourself!”
Luka glared at me with reddened eyes as she nodded “Okay….I'll try. It's just I feel so bad. I have to make amends with Rae, but how? Gosh… where do I even start? God, you were right; I should have told her. Why was I so afraid? Even if there were risks rae deserved to know. How could I have been so stupid!” She yelled. I held her close, pulled her into a hug, and comforted her.
Luka, just now, just mentioned risks? What risks? The more I find out about this world, the worse it becomes. Just what kind of stranglehold does Alexia have on this world?
“Just what are the risks you talk about? Is Alexia that formidable?”
Luka wiped her tears and met my eyes with her deep red ones. “Alexia is a control freak; that much is obvious. So much so that any attempt to usurp her authority or influence NEVER ends well. I feared that Rae would become…..unwoven.”
“Unwoven?” I asked. She said the word with such seriousness. I don’t like where this is going.
She nodded. “Ive never seen myself personally, but rumours say it's a fate worse than death. Rumours say that Alexia rips your soul out, shreds it, leaving nothing but a husk that does what she desires. My fear was that, with Rae being LAME and having an awful tattoo, if she found out her own mother treated her badly because of her own tattoo. She might become unwoven. I know it sounds ridiculous, but Nobody knows what you must do to become unwoven, and that’s what's so scary about it! It can happen any time on the whim of Alexia. I've heard Alexia has unwove people just for thinking about going against her plan! I was just…. I just wanted her to be safe. It's all ive ever wanted!”
Luka took a deep breath as she tried to collect her thoughts.
“I just wanted to protect her. However, by trying to protect her, all ive done is hurt her. I should've told her im a terrible mom”
“No Your not!” I snapped. “It’s normal for Moms to be always worried about their children; in your heart you believed you were protecting Rae. Don’t ever fault yourself for that, okay….”
She looked at me and wiped her tears.“T..thank you”, she said. I nodded and leaned back against the headboard. This unwoven nonsense. I was wondering how Alexia maintained her control so strongly. Pain can only get you so far, I guess. The potential of having your soul ripped out at any moment is also a very scary motivator. But why didn’t she do that to Luka?
“Do you know why you didn't become unwoven? You defied her will by staying with Rae, no?” I turned to ask a partially crying Luka.
“I don't know.” She said with a shrug, “I like to think my suffering was enough to keep her satisfied, or maybe I just didn’t matter enough in the grand scheme of everything. ”
I nodded back to her and looked away. I need to hide my anger. I don’t want to scare Luka, but I swear to god. If I find out Alexia tormented her for the fun of it. There will be no godly power that will fix what I do to her, but before any of that, right now, there is a family that needs fixing.
“I think we should go see Rae,” I stated.
Lukas eyes snapped towards me. “No…. I don’t think I’m…. she wont want to see me anyway.”
I shook my head. “Nope, we go now luka. You’ve spent way too much time in your life not being able to tell your daughter how you feel today; all of that changes. The wanderer is gone. All that’s left is you. So let's go”
She looked at me for a moment before giving me a smile and nodding“Okay…Let's go.” Luka quickly blinked away her tears before sliding out of bed.
“Actually, before we go… maybe we should shower. lest you want Rae to see her mother covered in cum.” I said, sliding out of bed as well. Luka looked down and laughed a little for what could've been the first Time in years.
“God, I'm such an emotional wreck that I didn’t notice. Yeah, let's do that.” She turned and headed towards the shower; however, as she was about to enter, she stopped and looked at me.
“I never said it, but thank you for freeing me…a…and showing me a good time, but next time can you please be gentle…that spanking stuff…..It really isn't for me...”
Before I could reply, she bolted into the shower….
“Next time….” I said with a smile as I headed towards the shower.
“There will definitely be a next time….”
Sometime later…..
“That was an amazing shower,” I said as I walked down the passageway towards Rae’s room
“Did you really have to join me though, utaari?” Luka complained. I giggled. “ Whats some skinship between girls”
“That was more than skinship”, she yelled. A shit-eating grin grew across my face “Like I said, amazing shower, and besides, didn’t you enjoy it?” Luka's cheeks went as red as a tomato, but judging by her slight smile, she very much enjoyed it. I kept teasing her until eventually we made it to the front of the room. I moved to the side of the door and gestured to Luka to open it.
Luka wrapped her hand around the doorknob as she did; her face went through a million emotions: happiness, sadness, fear, confusion. Before she was finally able to settle down.
“Okay luka. We can do this” Luka twisted the knob (heh heh) and pulled.
“Rae. It's Luka. Can we tal-“
Luka paused for a moment before suddenly bolting into the room“Rae? Where are you rae!”
I ran into the room behind her, and we were met with a barren room with Rae nowhere to be seen. All of her stuff was gone, everything except a small note on the bed that read
I’m leaving. I want to say this was a tough decision, but it wasn’t. I am not wanted in this house, and that’s fine. ive accepted it and have come to terms with it. I once thought that if I stayed, things would change; that one day my mother wouldn’t hate me so much, and we could finally be a family, but no matter how much I tried, that day looked further and further away. I yearn for a day where Luka and I can share a meal without fighting, but sadly I need to be realistic; It’s clear my existence is a burden, it’s clear she doesn’t want to be in my life, and if that’s what she wants, then so be it.
I’m leaving. Goodbye Luka. And utaari, if you find this, sorry for just disappearing like this. I hope fate allows for us to cross paths once again. I am forever grateful for what you’ve done for me
-Rae
“Rae….. dammit!” Luka’s hands trembled as she read the letters through teary eyes “This is my fault. I caused this.”
“No. Don’t! Don’t do that to yourself. Look, we don’t know how long ago this was okay. She could still be in the village for all we know. Just stay positive, okay.” I wiped away her tears as best I could, but she was an emotion-filled wreck. I sat her down on the bed and began to snoop through Rae’s room for any clues she may have left. I checked in her wardrobe, dresser, and under her bed for anything. But nothing; all I could find was an old sock and what looked like a handwritten receipt.
I scanned over the receipt. It was a store mainly selling things for adventures. On it were things like portable tents, camping equipment, etc, all sorts of survival gear.
“Luka, look at this…”
I showed her the receipt; she wiped her tears and read it over. “Oh god, this is really happening”
“No no no! Look! Everything she bought is survival focused, which means she’s planning to camp out and stay in the wilderness, meaning she is more than likely…”
“Camping in the forest.” She finished through lidded Eyes.
“That’s it. Kazeka said there is a road that goes through the forest to the other border village. If we're quick, we may be able to meet her on the way or at that village!”
Luka looked up towards me through teary eyes. “But she said she doesn't want to see me” Luka wept. All these tears; am I seeing 18 years of bottled-up emotion? I wiped her tears again and grabbed her by the shoulders
“Look at me luka! She said that because she believes you hate her! Is that true?”
“n….no”
“Good, so stop crying your eyes out and let's prove her wrong. Let's go get our girl back!”
Luka looked at me and gave me a smile
“Let's do this!”
Meanwhile in the forest…..
Rae pov:
The caravan gently slowed as it pulled to the side.
“Right, people were pulling in for the night. Grab your gear and get ready for the night,” a voice ordered. Quickly, I shuffled on my pack and shuffled out of the caravan along with 6 other people.
"God, my ass is raw. It must be illegal for the ride to be that rough,” one of the passengers complained, and honestly, I don’t blame him. After 30 minutes of riding, I lost all feeling in my cheeks. But it’s worth it to get away from her.
The moment I hopped out of the caravan, I quickly found a spot and started unpacking. Pulling my tent and sleeping bag out as the others got a fire going in no time, camp was made, and the others gathered around the fire. The others chatted and talked about their dreams and goals whilst I sat and listened. Everyone else was so excited to be going; meanwhile, I was… I don’t know. I wasn’t happy. I wasn’t sad either. I couldn’t stay in that house, not after what Luka did, but then again leaving her out of the blue, leaving only that note…. I don’t know…..Either way, it's too late to come back anyway; I've made my bed. Now I need to lie in it.
I reached into my pocket and pulled out a strip of dried beef, tore a piece and ate it. As I did, a gentle guitar strum came from my right. It was one of the other passengers.
“You guys don’t mind if I practice a little bit, right?”
We all nodded. The man smiled and started playing a nice, calm melody; he was good. If I remember, he was a travelling musician going from village to village, trying to make it big, and well, if he continues playing like this, he will get there. I closed my eyes and rocked side to side with the melody, and what a beautiful melody it was; every note permeated my soul, making me one with it. What's even more amazing is how I could hear other instruments along the guitar; there were violins, flutes, bass instruments and even vocals. It was amazing music. However, something started to change. The music started to sound quieter, more distant. Where was it going? I need to hear more of that wonderful tune. I opened my eyes and looked deep into the forest. It's coming from down there. I slowly rose to my feet and wandered into the forest, followed by the others.
The music moved deeper and deeper into the forest, beckoning our group forward with every note, and eagerly I followed. Chasing after this music that I needed to hear more of that I couldn’t imagine living without. It was just that beautiful.
I kept walking, and then walking until finally the music started getting louder and louder. I could feel it getting closer and closer until ii finally found the location: a deep, dark cave entrance. Without hesitation, I walked towards the now ear-bursting tune. Every note took every worry off my body all the stress, the anxiety, the pain; all of it didn’t matter because of this music. As I entered the cave, the light around me dimmed. However, I ignored it; I didn't need to see or smell. All I needed was my ears. Because this music was all that mattered…
“Come here, friend…..”An angelic voice whispered in my ear; I followed diligently down narrow tunnels and through four wide crevices
“Closer, friend. There is plenty of music here,” the voice said again. More music that’s….. that's amazing! I was about to walk when suddenly I heard footsteps. I looked to my side and caught a glimpse of our group; all of us were here, including the bard…who was….Missing his guitar? Then how is he, wait has he been-“
Suddenly the music jumped up several levels. God, it's! Just! So beautiful. I need more of it. Nothing matters now.
“You are almost here now, friends.” The voice beckoned. My walk turned into a sprint. I ran towards the music, the beautiful voice. Rounding blind corners without a care until finally I arrived at the source, and what a beautiful source. A lone figure stood playing a beautiful flute.
“You seem lonely, friend”, she said, beckoning me forward to sit next to her. She played her flute once more, and before I knew it, she was giving me a lap pillow.
“You look lonely”, she said with a sad face, and god was she right. I am lonely; I've been lonely for 18 years.
Tears welled up in my eyes “You have no idea. my own mother hates me and I don’t know why! I just…I just want her to love me. Is that too much to ask!” Tears flowed like an endless river down my cheeks. Suddenly I felt a hand gently wipe my cheeks. It was the figure from before. They had immaculate blue eyes…I
“You have suffered a lot, friend, but don’t worry, we’ll love you.”
“Will you? Will you love me?”
“Always”
The words felt like relief on my broken heart. The figure pulled me close as they continued to play a beautiful tune. To think finally someone loves me. I can't believe it. I am loved.
I settled into the figure's lap as my world suddenly turned back. I can't imagine being anywhere else right now.