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Chapter 3: The Persona Wakes

Naruto: Disillusion

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The clone worked.

That part was finished, filed, done — a solved problem, and Naruto had learned a long time ago not to keep admiring solved problems when there were unsolved ones stacked behind them.

The trouble was that a clone that survived a rock in an empty lot at midnight and a clone that survived a shopkeeper’s second glance in broad daylight were not the same clone, and only one of them was useful.Full novel: Naruto: Disillusion — read the rest free on N​o⁠v​e⁠l​C⁠o​d⁠e​x⁠.​o⁠r​g⁠

You’ve been quiet for three days, Kurama said.

It’s unsettling.

Usually you complain more.

“I’m thinking.”

You’re brooding.

There’s a difference.

Brooding is thinking that’s given up on getting anywhere.

“I’m thinking,” Naruto repeated, “about what’s actually missing.”

He laid it out, because saying it out loud to a fox in his own head was cheaper than writing it down where someone could find it.

The clone was durable.

Fine.

The clone could take a hit and keep standing.

Also fine.

But it was still, unmistakably, a clone of a six-year-old boy, and six-year-old boys could not walk into a records office, could not buy weapons, could not stand in a room with a jonin and be uninteresting.

What he needed wasn’t a tougher copy of himself.

What he needed was somebody else.

Transformation, Kurama said.

“Transformation,” Naruto agreed.

“Which is the easy part. Every kid in the Academy can turn into their teacher badly enough to get a laugh.”

And you need it to hold up when someone grabs its arm.

“I need it to hold up when someone grabs its arm, asks it a question it wasn’t expecting, and stands close enough to smell it.” He rolled his shoulders, felt the small body do the small-body thing where the joints hadn’t decided yet what shape they were becoming.

“The jutsu’s not the problem. The performance is.”

So you’re not building a disguise.

You’re building a person.

Naruto didn’t answer that one right away, and later he’d think that was probably the first sign of something he should have paid closer attention to.

The first attempt was, by any reasonable standard, a catastrophe.

He’d aimed for an unremarkable man in his thirties — plain features, plain clothes, the kind of face that slid off the memory — and what stood in the lot in front of him was roughly that, if you were being generous, and drunk, and standing very far away.

It’s too tall, Kurama observed.

“It’s not too tall.”

It’s a head taller than every adult you’ve ever stood next to.

You built it from the angle you see adults at.

From underneath.

Naruto looked at it, and then up at it, and then, grudgingly, saw it.

“Huh.”

Yes.

Huh.

The second attempt was the right height and the wrong everything else.

The face held fine, that was the easy part, but the moment he made it walk it fell apart — it moved like exactly what it was, a small boy’s idea of how a grown man carried himself, all deliberate heavy steps, shoulders held too square, the whole thing an impression rather than a person.

It walks like a puppet with opinions, Kurama said.

“You’re a very unhelpful audience.”

I’m the only audience you can afford.

Try again.

He tried again.

And again.

It took most of a month, and it was, to his considerable relief, nothing like the clone had been — nobody bled for this one, nobody collapsed in the dirt with their heart doing something inadvisable.

It was just tedious.

Fussy, technical, endlessly detailed work, the kind of problem that yielded a little at a time and never all at once.

He learned that voices were harder than faces.

He learned that hands gave you away faster than anything, because people looked at hands without knowing they were doing it, and a six-year-old’s instinct for what to do with his hands was nothing like a grown man’s.

He learned that the trick to standing like an adult was, mostly, standing like someone who had never once in his life worried about whether he was allowed to be where he was standing.

That last part came easier than he expected.

He’d been that person before.

He just had to remember how it felt to have a body that didn’t apologize for taking up space.

And then, one evening, it held.

Not perfectly.

He could feel the seams if he looked for them — the way the voice sat a half-step too careful, the way the posture needed a conscious thought every minute or so to keep from sliding.

But it held.

A man stood in the lot where a boy had been standing, and looked, from any distance at all, like nothing in particular.

Naruto walked a slow circle around him, checking angles, and felt the specific quiet satisfaction of a thing finally arriving after being late a long time.

Better, Kurama said.

Not good.

Better.

“It’ll get good.”

It’ll get good, Kurama agreed, which from him was practically applause.

“He needs a name,” Naruto said, a few days later.

Does he.

“If someone asks him what he’s called and he has to think about it, that’s the whole thing over. It has to be automatic. It has to come out before I’ve decided to say it.”

Reasonable, Kurama allowed.

So?

Naruto thought about it for a while.

Not long — he’d been half-thinking about it for days already, and the answer had been sitting there the whole time, waiting for him to stop pretending he hadn’t picked it.

“Kuro.”

There was a pause.

Kuro, Kurama repeated.

“It’s plain. It’s short. Nobody remembers a Kuro. And it’s easy to say fast, without stumbling, which is the only thing that actually matters.”

Mm, Kurama said.

Naruto let that sit for a second, and then, because he’d known this fox in two lifetimes and could hear a loaded silence coming from a long way off: “Say it.”

You built a body to do the things you don’t want to do with your own hands, Kurama said, unhurried, entirely without heat.

And then you named it black.

“It’s a common name.”

It is.

That’s what makes it interesting that it’s the one you reached for.

“You’re reading into it.”

I’m not reading anything.

I’m looking at it.

A pause.

You’ve spent a year building a man who can go where you can’t and do what you won’t, and now he has a name and you don’t have to think of him as yourself anymore.

That’s not an accusation, incidentally.

It’s an efficient piece of engineering.

I’d have done the same.

“But,” Naruto said.

But nothing.

I said what I said.

Something shifted, the way it did when Kurama was choosing not to push.

It’ll matter later.

Not tonight.

Naruto let it go, because there wasn’t anywhere useful to take it, and also because some part of him had already registered the observation as true and filed it somewhere he wasn’t planning to open for a while.

But he noticed, over the days after, that he’d stopped thinking the clone.

Stopped thinking the persona, too, which had always been a mouthful anyway.

He thought Kuro.

It was just faster.

That was all it was.

The test needed to be small, reversible, and boring.

That ruled out most of what he actually wanted to try.

What was left was a shop on the east side that sold ninja tools to anyone with money and a face old enough to be trusted with sharp things — which meant, in practice, that it sold to adults and turned away children, and had turned away children often enough that the man behind the counter had the specific weary look of someone who’d had this argument a thousand times and won it a thousand times.

Perfect.

If Kuro failed here, the worst outcome was a strange look and a story the shopkeeper would forget by dinner.

Naruto formed the clone two streets away, in an alley narrow enough to be private, and laid the Transformation over the top of it.

The man who walked out of the alley was thirty-something, plain, unhurried.

Nobody looked at him twice, which was exactly the point.

The bell over the shop door made a small flat sound.

“Afternoon,” the shopkeeper said, not looking up.

“Afternoon.” Kuro’s voice came out right — level, adult, bored in the way people are bored when a task is routine.

He took his time.

That had been the plan — browse like someone who’d done this before, don’t go straight for the thing you came for, don’t move like you’re on a schedule.

Kunai.

A spool of wire.

A whetstone he didn’t need but which made the basket look like a working shinobi’s basket rather than a shopping list.

He set it all on the counter, and the shopkeeper finally looked up, and the look went on about a second longer than Naruto had budgeted for.

“Don’t think I’ve seen you in here.”

Careful, Kurama said.

“Been on rotation,” Kuro said.

“Out more than in, last couple of years.”

“Mm.” The shopkeeper’s eyes went over his face again, and then down to his hands, and Naruto felt something in his chest do a small unpleasant thing, because he’d learned about hands and had still not thought about them in this exact second.

Kuro’s hands were resting on the counter, fingers spread, still.

Too still.

Nobody stood like that.

People fidgeted, people drummed, people did small unconscious things with their fingers while they waited.

He made Kuro shift his weight and pick up the whetstone, turning it over like he was checking the grain.

Ordinary.

Idle.

The shopkeeper’s attention moved on.

“Twelve hundred.”

Kuro paid.

The bell made its small flat sound again on the way out, and by the time he’d gone two streets and dropped the transformation and dispelled the clone in the same alley he’d built it in, Naruto’s heart was going considerably harder than a six-year-old standing still in an alley had any business explaining.

Well, Kurama said.

“Don’t.”

You froze his hands.

“I know.”

If that man had been anyone with actual training, you’d have been having a very different conversation just now.

“I know,” Naruto said again, and sat down on a crate in the alley, and put his head back against the wall, and let his pulse come down.

The kunai were in a bag on the ground beside him.

Real ones.

Bought, not stolen, by a man who didn’t exist.

It had worked.

It had also very nearly not worked, and the distance between those two things had been about one second of a bored shopkeeper’s attention.

You’ll want to fix the hands, Kurama said.

“I’ll fix the hands.”

And the voice.

It was a half-beat slow every time he answered.

He sounded like a man translating.

“I’ll fix the voice.”

And—

“I’ll fix all of it,” Naruto said, and then, after a moment, quieter: “It worked, though.”

It did, Kurama admitted.

Barely.

Unglamorously.

But it did.

Naruto grinned at the alley wall, tired and pleased in a way that had nothing performative in it at all.

The second time, three weeks later, he did it properly.

Different shop, further from anywhere he’d normally be, and this time Kuro walked in with something Naruto had spent the entire three weeks building into him: a history.

Not written down anywhere, not a document, just a set of answers that existed before the questions did.

Where he’d been posted.

Why he was back.

What he thought of the weather, in the specific unenthusiastic way people actually discussed weather.

He didn’t need most of it.

That was the point.

You built the whole thing so the small part you used came out without a seam.

The hands moved right this time.

The voice came without the half-beat.

When the woman behind the counter asked whether he wanted the wire in the heavier gauge, Kuro said “the heavier’s fine, the light stuff kinks,” which was true, and which he said the way you say something you’ve complained about before.

She nodded like it was the most ordinary exchange in the world, because it was.

He was in and out in six minutes.

Better, Kurama said, as the alley swallowed the transformation and Naruto came back to being a small boy sitting on a crate.

“Better,” Naruto agreed.

Do you want me to say the other thing?

“Which other thing?”

The one where I admit that was good.

“Was it good?”

It was good, Kurama said, and Naruto sat there in the dark of the alley with his arms around his knees, grinning like an idiot at nothing.

Building the dossier took longer than building Kuro had.

He’d been collecting for years — the disappearances, the too-blank faces on certain Anbu, the pattern of which orphanages went quiet about which children, names surfacing in the wrong places at the wrong times.

All of it stored in his head, because paper could be found, and because there was nothing in the world more dangerous to him than a written record in a six-year-old’s handwriting.

Now it had to become something.

Something Itachi Uchiha could hold in his hands and act on.

That meant deciding what to leave out, and that turned out to be the hard part.

You know more than this, Kurama said, watching him work through it for the third night running.

“I know a lot more than this.”

So why aren’t you giving it to him?

“Because if I give him everything I know, he doesn’t ask ‘who is Danzo hurting.’ He asks ‘who could possibly know all of this.'” Naruto turned a page in his own head, sorting, discarding.

“The second he asks that question, I’ve made myself the story instead of Danzo. Everything after that is him hunting me, and he’s very good, and I’m six.”

So you give him enough to be furious about and not enough to be curious about.

“I give him enough that verifying it is easy and tracing it is impossible. Names he can check. Dates he can cross-reference against records he already has access to. Nothing that only one person could have seen.” He paused.

“And nothing about the future. Ever. Not one line, not one hint, not once.”

And the Sharingan business?

Danzo’s collection?

“That goes in.” Naruto’s voice didn’t change at all.

“That’s the one that makes him move. Everything else makes him angry. That one makes him afraid.”

Kurama was quiet for a moment.

You’ve thought about this a great deal.

“I’ve had a while.”

Yes, Kurama said.

I suppose you have.

The night before, he didn’t sleep much, which annoyed him more than it worried him.

It can’t be undone, Kurama said, somewhere in the small hours.

Not a warning.

Just placing the fact on the table where they could both see it.

“No.”

Once he has it, he acts, or he doesn’t.

Either way the board’s different in the morning.

“That’s the idea.”

You’ve spent your whole life this time being very careful not to touch anything.

A pause.

This is touching something.

Naruto lay there in the dark and thought about that, and about the fact that it was true, and about how strange it was that the thing he’d been building toward for years still had a lip on it he had to step over.

“It’s not me touching it,” he said finally.

“It’s Kuro.”

Ah, Kurama said.

Just that.

Nothing after it.

Somehow that was worse than if he’d said the whole thing again.

“Goodnight, Kurama.”

Goodnight.

Itachi Uchiha’s patrol route was a known quantity, because Itachi Uchiha was thirteen years old and ANBU and precise as a metronome, and precision was a thing you could read from the outside if you watched long enough.

He passed the same stretch of the compound wall at the same point in the same rotation, and there was a gap in the stone there — old damage, never repaired, the kind of thing you’d only notice if you’d spent three weeks noticing things.

Kuro moved through the streets at the flat hour before dawn, when the village was neither asleep nor awake and a plain man walking with purpose was the least interesting thing on any street.

No hurry.

Hurrying was what got people looked at.

Two on the east approach, Kurama said.

Uchiha.

Not looking this way.

Kuro adjusted, half a street, no change in pace.

Went around.

The wall.

The gap.

He didn’t stop walking — he’d practiced that specifically, over and over, the motion of setting something down without breaking stride, because a man who paused was a man who’d done something, and a man who kept moving had just walked past a wall.

The packet went into the gap.

Wrapped plain.

No seal, no mark, nothing that said anything about who’d left it except that whoever it was had known exactly where Itachi Uchiha would be standing in about ninety seconds.

That last part was deliberate too.

Not a signature.

A demonstration.

Kuro was four streets away when the rotation passed the wall, and he didn’t look back, and he didn’t slow down, and by the time the sun came up he’d dispersed into nothing in an alley on the other side of the village and a six-year-old boy was walking home with his hands in his pockets.

Done, Kurama said.

“Done.”

How do you feel?

Naruto considered it honestly, which he didn’t always bother to do.

“Like I want to do it again,” he said.

“Which is probably the part I should keep an eye on.”

Probably, Kurama agreed.

I’ll keep an eye on it too.

I’m very good at noticing things about you that you’d rather I didn’t.

“You really are.”

It’s my gift.

The Academy gate, eight days later, was smaller than he remembered.

That happened sometimes — a thing from the other life turning up in this one at a slightly different size than memory had filed it, and the mismatch always landed strangely, a half-second of vertigo before the world settled back down.

He stood there with a bag on his shoulder and a village full of children streaming past him, loud and unbothered and entirely certain of what today was.

Somewhere across the village, a thirteen-year-old ANBU had spent eight days quietly verifying names against records, and whatever he’d found had not made him sleep any better.

That was moving now.

Out of Naruto’s hands, exactly as designed.

You’re stalling, Kurama observed.

“I’m having a moment.”

You’ve had several.

They’re not getting shorter.

“This is the part where I go be bad at things on purpose for the next several years,” Naruto said.

“Give me a second to appreciate it.”

You’re going to be so tremendously bad at things, Kurama said, with something that in a lesser creature would have been called delight.

You’re going to be aggressively mediocre.

It’s going to be the finest work of your life.

“I’ve thrown a kunai wrong four hundred times in practice to get the wrongness consistent.”

I know.

I watched.

It was the single most ridiculous thing I have ever seen a grown man do, and I once watched Hashirama Senju cry at a tree.

Naruto laughed — out loud, in public, at nothing, the way children did constantly and nobody ever questioned, which was its own small piece of cover he’d learned to appreciate.

Then he shifted the bag on his shoulder, put on a face somewhere between eager and unremarkable, and walked in through the gate with everybody else.

Behind him, in a village that had no idea, the first thread pulled tight.

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