First thing, even though I wanted to just lie there, I got out of the shelter and went to the water to wash up. My thighs were covered in my own juice – apparently I'd squirted (I need to start thinking of myself in the feminine). The water was cold, but I forced myself to wade in up to my shins and scrub my body until it squeaked.
Willpower +1
The notification that popped up before my eyes made me freeze with a grin for several long seconds. So primary stats can be increased not just with experience points. Turns out, willpower needs to be developed only by pushing past your limits. Fine then – I'll develop a healthy lifestyle, and pull up other stats along the way. Dropped into push-up position and started cranking them out. The body performed excellently – up to twenty, no discomfort at all, then my arms got heavy. Up to thirty I pushed through with effort. After that, every rep came with massive strain.
On the 46th lift, my arms were dead, but I fought with everything I had not to collapse. My whole body shook with tension. Sweat poured into my eyes. Thoughts raced, and I wanted to understand why the fuck I was doing this on the very first day of what was essentially my rebirth. But still I stubbornly tried to straighten my arms and push my body up.
Willpower +1
Strength +1
There's the reward for my suffering. Even got strength out of it. Brought up the menu. For 46 push-ups, I lost 30 energy. So I could still train more, but night was ahead, and I had no clue what dangers awaited me in this forest after dark. Lay down on a pile of branches and leaves. Exhausted like a dog from the day. Exactly exhausted – not exhausted in the masculine – because I decided to even think of myself in the feminine to get used to the new life faster.
Thoughts drifted toward playing with myself again before sleep, but I shut that down immediately. I can't give in to lust. Slept maybe 2-3 hours, then suddenly woke up in the middle of the night. Groggy, I couldn't tell what was happening, then it clicked. Outside the shelter, I heard loud breathing and shuffling across the ground. Wolves, most likely. I started frantically thinking what to do – no proper body, no decent weapon, and even with one, a regular human has shit chances against a pack.
The wolves sniffed around the shelter and my pathetic excuse for a fence, stuck their heads between the stakes, staring right at me, then backed off. And then it hit me – I had a night-oriented class built for stealth in the dark. The stealth stat doesn't just work visually, it also masks smell and sound, and wolves only caught the scent I'd left in the area. Ooooh, very fucking good parameter – I hadn't thought it would affect the world so literally.
The wolves rustled around my hideout for another half hour, then left, but I couldn't get back to sleep. I needed to plan my next steps, but I couldn't – my thoughts were a mess. Needed to get myself sorted, and I even knew how. Had a habit from my past life – when I needed to structure my thoughts, meditate for 15-20 minutes, and everything got simpler. Sat in lotus position – the new body was pretty flexible – closed my eyes and tried to detach from the world.
First, feel your body, then move to breathing and chase away all thoughts. By internal sensation, I sat like that for about forty minutes, until a notification pulled me out.
Intelligence +1
New skill available: "Meditation"
Meditation +1
Honestly, I wasn't that surprised – it made sense that early on, stats could be easily raised without using attribute points. But how to level up – that was a question. Killing a rabbit gave me five exp, but jerking off gave me fifty. So this world rewards love, not violence. I'd seen plenty of filth in my past life, so this world even appealed to me in some ways, but I wouldn't go along with it until I raised my willpower and was a hundred percent sure of my mental defenses. As you gathered, I've got a thing about that.
It was the darkest hour of night, stars shining in the sky – I hadn't seen a moon for this planet yet. I just lay there listening to the sounds outside. At this time, nocturnal predators were retreating to their dens, and daytime ones were still asleep. Decided to run an experiment. Get my arousal to 90 and see how it affects me, whether it fades on its own or absolutely needs release. Since I was already naked, I started caressing my breasts, then dropped one hand to my crotch.
Arousal 90/100
I'll stop right there. Between my legs was a flood. My whole body burned and craved more, but I closed my eyes and tried to calm myself. My thoughts and body twisted like a junkie's – I regretted starting this experiment within 30 seconds, but still stubbornly didn't move. Tried thinking about dead puppies and dismembered corpses. About 10 minutes later, I called up status – arousal held at 90 and didn't even think about dropping. A couple minutes later, a notification popped.
Willpower +1
"Well, count this torture as training." Got the next willpower point another 15 minutes later. I held on in a semi-faint state with a burning body and a dripping cunt for several hours, until it was fully light out. In three hours, I got a total of eight points. After the eighth, a notification appeared.
Attention: You have raised the "willpower" stat by more than 8 points in a short time interval. For this, you are awarded the title "Iron Will."
Willpower +5
It is very difficult to influence you mentally; skills and artifacts that enslave the will break down over time.
The title itself pleased me with its bonuses, but the fact that slavery existed here didn't trigger panic. All worlds are more or less the same – there are assholes in all of them. The main thing is not to stray from the path and keep grinding willpower.
However, my arousal was still active; it was already morning and I needed to find food and continue the journey. So I lowered my fingers to my wet labia, spread them, and inserted one finger inside. Despite the wetness, it was pretty tight inside, and a couple centimeters in, my finger hit an obstacle. Logical that the new body was virginal. With my thumb, I started rubbing my clit, and with the inserted finger, I began making circular motions.
Orgasm came in 15 seconds, and this time it was so strong I screamed like a stuck pig. Eyes rolled back, little pleasure-balls seemed to explode all over my body. I thought my heart wouldn't take it – it was too good, but painful at the same time. After a couple minutes, it let go, and I blacked out immediately.
When I opened my eyes, it was already late morning. I was drenched in sweat, and inside the shelter hung a thick smell of pussy.
You received Experience +50
You leveled up!
Current Level: 2
Free Attribute Points: 10
Masturbation +1
Attribute points, of course, I'd save for later when grinding stats on my own got hard. No rush. Went to the water to drink – my mouth was the Sahara desert, though my body felt as relaxed as after a good massage. Bathed quickly as best I could in the stream.
Any morning should start with exercise – change the world, gender, brain, whatever you like, but in a veteran officer it's burned into the soul. Started with warm-ups – the body was much more flexible and obedient, easily dropped into splits and twisted my arms like a gymnast. Still managed to finish the stretching with honor. Then push-ups, crunches, did a few pull-ups on a nearby tree branch.
Next up – crafting. You'd think in that life I wasn't young and wouldn't know all those hardcore gamer terms, but I had kids, and honestly, there was a time I got seriously hooked on "Lineage" myself, though I quit later, but the lingo stuck. And what I needed to craft first was footwear – running barefoot was absolutely no fun. For that, I needed two rabbit hides, plus thread and a needle. A sharp splinter would work as a pseudo-needle, and thread I could make from the bark of a young tree or bush. It wouldn't last long, but it'd do for now.
After half an hour of struggling, I managed to somehow attach the hide to my foot using cords from green bark, and then a notification popped.
Do you wish to create Simple Fur Boots? (Required Skill: Sewing)
Yes / No
"Well, let's try it, yes!" My improvised boot started glowing, and after 3 seconds turned into a perfectly decent-looking leather boot.
You created item: "Novice Fur Boots"
Durability: 50/50
Rank: Common
Experience +10
Repeated the process for a matching pair – same result. I figured they'd last maybe five days max, but still not bad. Just needed to cover the jugs and ass, and life would get better. Grabbed my simple belongings and headed downstream – sooner or later, it would lead to people.
About half an hour in, I found bushes with some berries. Intuition told me they were edible – probably Herbalism kicking in. The berries were ripe and sweet, no sourness, so they made up my breakfast. Continued on. I spotted a deer in the distance – it was bent over the stream drinking water. From about 300 meters away, I ducked into the forest and started stalking it. Even if it wasn't night, I still had some stealth, and it wouldn't hurt to level it.
After drinking its fill, the animal lay down in an open spot and did nothing. I could move through the forest more or less competently, though I wasn't some super-pro. Covered half the distance in 10 minutes.
Stealth +1
The rest of the way I moved really slowly, crouched low and watching my feet, constantly keeping bushes or trees between me and my prey. The deer whipped its head around at every rustle and was generally alert. When I reached a distance of 10-12 meters, I'd managed to level stealth another 2 points. And that's when a surprise hit. When I looked at the deer through the bushes, a translucent label floated above its head.
Lustful Deer (Level 3)
Lustful deer differ from their ordinary kin by increased aggression and lust; they often attack people to satisfy their own lust; have increased agility and perception. Weak points: head, neck. A wounded deer is dangerous even for experienced hunters. (Note given due to Hunting skill)
"Oh hell no – this hoofed steak might actually attack and fuck me?" This deranged porn-world never ceased to amaze. Its level was higher than mine, and it would have more brute force too. On the other hand, if I circled around and approached from behind, I could use the class skill "Backstab." The description said it dealt 5x damage, and 15x if done with a dagger or knife. I'd be using a spear, whose tip I'd fire-hardened on the campfire yesterday – if I hit the head, it was dead. Said and done.
For 20 minutes, I quietly crept toward its back. The deer wasn't looking that way – probably relying on hearing – and I, breathing in short bursts, started closing in for the strike. At the last moment, it sensed something and tried to bolt, but I'd already struck with both hands on the shaft. The spear pierced its neck – the deer jerked up, tried to run, but collapsed after two leaps. Blood gushed from the wound; the deer was dying, but I wasn't looking at that. My attention was fixed elsewhere. The thing was, between the legs of this lustful beast stood a cock as stiff as a post, about seventy centimeters long and thick.
Arousal 60/100
This goddamn body reacts to any male organ, even from animals – this wasn't funny anymore. A few minutes later, the deer died, and a hundred exp popped up. Immediately started gutting and skinning it with my trusty sharp-edged rock.
Over the course of half a day from the deer, I managed to craft a skirt, a top, and a simple bag – all common rank, but with durability 120, since I used sinew instead of threads and cords. Managed to break off the antlers with a rock and got a sharp spike about thirty centimeters long. Found a better branch, lashed the spike to it, and crafted a common spear. Damage 5-9. After all the work, I dropped my arousal back down to the standard 20 – apparently it can't go lower, or I just don't know how. This orgasm wasn't as strong as the morning one – that one had been from insane denial at peak over several hours.
After finishing everything, I cooked venison shish kebab and continued on. By evening, learning from experience, I set up a better bed: rolled several boulders toward the windfall, covered it all with thick branches, and placed the same stakes at the entrance. Before sleep, I decided to train willpower again. Slowly pushed arousal to 83 and calmed down. No meditation was possible – I held on by sheer will for a couple hours, raised willpower by 3 points, then just couldn't take it anymore and started furiously rubbing my crotch. Against my will, that thick deer cock came to mind. I came as violently as in the morning and passed out immediately. At night, wolves showed up a couple times, but even with the stench coming off me, they didn't see anyone in my shelter.
And so my journey downhill along the stream continued for 3 days. During that time, I leveled my stats and got another title for willpower. In short:
Willpower +14
Strength +5
Agility +7
Intelligence +8
Endurance +10
Perception +4
Arousability +6
Masturbation +3
Meditation +3
Title: "Steel Will"
Willpower +10
It is almost impossible to influence you mentally. All skills and artifacts that enslave consciousness wear down under the pressure of your will within a maximum of a few hours.
After I raised Masturbation to level 5, I also got a new perk.
I'm Comfortable Alone: During masturbation, you receive 50% more experience.
So I was getting 75 exp per masturbation session, twice a day – morning for release, evening as training. Accordingly, I'd reached level 3 and was close to level 4 by my estimates.
And on the morning of the fourth day, I spotted about 300 meters off my path a hunter's cabin, with smoke rising from its chimney.