We would eventually have fun chatting with each other to the point where Amara once went, “Alright, it’s getting late.
I had fun speaking with you, but I should rest now.
Good night”
“Good night” is what I texted to return the favor.
Eventually, while I was friends with her, I began to feel something for her.
[Borderline Powerful Disorganization has been unlocked
Borderline Powerful Disorganization has been Triggered.]
I didn’t know why, but I always felt compelled to get Amara’s attention.
For some reason, I just kept on traumadumping to her.
Amara once told me she couldn’t handle all my problems because she had her own.
I don’t know why I did what I did but for some reason…..I blocked her on Instagram.
It felt like I needed to obsessive over her for some reason, I couldn’t control it…my emotions simply took over.
The next thing I knew, I was anxiously texting her again, then unsending my messages.
It annoyed her so much that she had to tell me to “f★☆k off,” and I accepted it by saying “okay.” For the next 6 months, I would spend it being depressed over her.
I was exhausting to deal with when my energy was nothing but negativity, with little to no positivity.
Who would want to deal with a person like me anyway?
[Character Profile:
Player #0
Name: Damien Zhao
Age: 14
Emotional Status: Abnormal]
[Regression Cycle has been Triggered
Depressing Personal Disorganization has been Triggered]
Cause of Death:
Stabbed by the Dagger of “F★☆k Off”
Regression Cycle:
4th turn → 5th turn]
Despite taking an advanced math class in preparation in the summer.
I started to give up on my grade in the 2nd semester of the advanced math class, which resulted in a D.
I had to replace that D to improve my academic GPA and make sure I had more chances to choose what I wanted for myself.
[Update on personal skills:
Regression level: 4
Borderline Powerful Disorganization level: 1
Depressing Personal Disorganization level: 1
Understanding of Self: locked]