There is still time.
I have a chance to refuse this future.
This future which leads to saddest, then why am I jumping to it.
Ever since I lost my family, my world.
Everything in this world became plain.
Nothing made sense which drove me almost to death.
I understand the meaning of life now….
Do I?
I guess I have to find out through this painful experience.
I have been through rejection, denial, lost, and breakdown.
Now I a chasing other experience which might teach me another painful lesson.
Chapter 3.5
It was night time, two days before dad left, and about three hours after dad made me promised to care of my sister.
“Hey, brother. When is dad’s trip?”
“Well, the day had almost passed so I would say about two days. Why do you ask though?”
“It is nothing. Just a feeling I have,” she answered me.
She looked a little stressed.
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“What is wrong?” I asked her gently this time.
“I feel like… I feel like something might happen to dad which will cause him to dead or suffer. I can’t tell about this is what my guts is telling me.”
Moments later, water begun to tip at her eye-slid.
She begun to to cry on my lap.
“You know, dad is really strong. There is nothing that will stop him from coming home to eat with mom. There is nothing that will stop him from coming here to song your favorite songs to you. And there is nothing that will ever face him.” I said.
As the words flowed, I felt a bright warm air engulf the room which we were in.
“Keep your chin up. Even if something happens. I will always love you.”
“…Thank you!”
From that life.
Rial Amakawa, I never received which support.
I was always alone, life wasn’t living.
It was surviving.
Is Rial Amakawa dead or alive?
Within me, I hold the truth.
Rial Amakawa is still living, but as another person: “Ria Karasuki.”
I heard Eva closely to my chest, she was very small in size and fragile too.
“You can cry all you want, I won’t tell dad.”
“No, I will stay strong. I won’t let my negative-thinking get the better of me.”
Shortly after, Eva fell asleep on the bed.
I silently stood up and rested on the couch.
It wasn’t comfortable but manageable.
Then silently, sleep drew me closer.
I fell asleep on the couch with my thoughts and doubts hanging.
“Are you who you claim to be? Are you Ria, Rial or the person who guilts crushed him.?”
The question was still in my mind even though I hadn’t been awake.
The human body is really wonderful.
My mind is still working even though I still asleep.
Then a voice spoke.
“Who are you really? Tell me.” The voice asked in a tone that sounded very soothing.
“Honestly, I don’t know.”
“Hmm.” It the voiced seemed to stop and think.
“You say you don’t know who you are but you are still living, aren’t you?”
“Of course. I am still living, technically.”
“Then the answer is very simple then.” She answered.
“You are Ria Karasuki, who is the the reincarnation of Riah Amakawa.”
“….Huh…”
“Who are you?” I asked, but the voice faded.