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Chapter 15: A Disaster of a Person

The Berserker’s rise

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The rest of the matches ran their course through the evening, one pair at a time, the chalk circles filling and emptying in a rhythm that had stopped, for most of the watching children, feeling like anything except weather to be endured. 028 fought somewhere past the midpoint of the list a short, scrappy match that he won more through sheer stubborn talking-through-it than any real technique, needling his opponent off balance with a running commentary that never quite stopped even mid-punch, until the other boy's frustration cost him an opening 028 was more than happy to take.

He came back to Yasin's side afterward with something almost like his usual energy restored, though it faded fast once he got a proper look at Yasin's face.

"Hey." He nudged Yasin's shoulder, light, careful. "I won. Did you see? Talked circles around him the whole time, he didn't know if he was fighting me or arguing with me." No response. He tried again, softer. "You're allowed to not be okay, you know. I wouldn't be either, if…"Full novel: The Berserker’s rise — read the rest free on N​o⁠v​e⁠l​C⁠o​d⁠e​x⁠.​o⁠r​g⁠

He didn't finish that sentence. Yasin didn't ask him to.

Nothing 028 offered that evening quite reached him not the jokes, not the quiet, not the careful, hovering presence of someone trying to be useful to a friend who had gone somewhere words couldn't currently follow. Yasin sat with his own hands in his lap, turning the memory over without meaning to, the gap in himself where a fight's ending should have been, the strange, cold absence of anyone driving while his body finished the job on its own.

It was well past dark, back in the room they now shared, before something in him finally settled.

He didn't decide it so much as arrive at it, the way you arrive at the bottom of a long fall quiet, total, without ceremony. Never again. Whatever that gap was, whatever had taken the wheel from him in that ring, he would not let it happen a second time. He didn't know yet how a five-year-old kept a promise like that. He only knew, lying in the dark with 028's breathing gone soft and even in the bunk across from him, that he meant it more completely than he had ever meant anything in his life.

Across the base, in the room with the old wood panelling and the window that looked out over the yard instead of the wall, the general sat with a glass he wasn't drinking from, and Major Lane sat across from him doing much the same, and Lieutenant Ashford stood at something close to attention with a tablet held against his chest like a man delivering a report he hadn't fully decided how to feel about.

"Candidates," Ashford said, and the general waved a hand, unbothered, inviting him to continue without requiring the formality of an introduction.

Ashford read through the list efficiently names reduced to numbers, numbers attached to brief, clinical notes on performance, aptitude, the small early signs command had learned to watch for. Lane listened with the same distant, half-present attention he brought to most things that weren't directly his own problem yet. The general listened more carefully, the way a man listens who has learned, over a long career, that the difference between an ordinary asset and something worth real investment usually hid itself in details easy to miss the first time through.

Ashford reached 027 and paused, just slightly, before he spoke again.

"This one's different," he said. "Not the performance the performance was good, sir, don't misunderstand me, the chokehold was clean, the timing was better than anyone that age has a right to manage. But that's not what flagged him for me."

"Go on," the general said.

"It was the look on his face after." Ashford's voice had gone quieter, more careful, a man choosing words he didn't entirely trust himself to choose well. "Or the lack of one. He kept holding the choke well past the point it needed holding. Instructors had to pull him off. And the whole time nothing. No fear, no satisfaction, nothing you'd expect to see on a five-year-old who'd just done what he did. Just... empty. Like there wasn't anyone home to feel it."

Lane raised an eyebrow, mildly interested for the first time since the meeting started. "Some kids go blank under stress. Doesn't make them special."

"I know." Ashford's jaw tightened, almost imperceptibly. "I've seen blank before. This wasn't blank the way panic is blank. It was blank the way a held breath is blank like there was something behind it, waiting." He hesitated, and then, because the room's silence seemed to require him to finish the thought, he did. "I've only felt that particular kind of wrong once before. A long time ago. My battalion got sent to assist on an operation gone sideways pinned down, taking losses we shouldn't have been taking against a force half our size. Command sent in support. One asset. Fifteen years old."

The general's glass stopped halfway to his mouth.

"Special grade," Ashford continued. "They let him keep his name, which should have told me something all on its own you don't let a Gen-1 soldier keep a name unless keeping it stopped mattering, unless whatever he'd become had already outgrown the point of taking it from him. Zack Peters." He said the name carefully, like it still cost him something to say it out loud. "I watched him clear that position in under four minutes. Watched his face the entire time doing it. Same look. Same nothing." A pause. "A disaster of a person, sir. I mean that as precisely as I can put it. And I got the same feeling off 027 tonight that I got off him, watching that operation end."

The room held its silence for a long moment after that.

"You're telling me," the general said slowly, setting his glass down without drinking from it, "that a five-year-old choking out another child in a training ring reminded you of Zack Peters."

"I'm telling you," Ashford said, "that I hope I'm wrong."

Nobody in the room said anything for a while after that. Outside the window, far across the dark yard, a single light still burned in one of the dormitory blocks, the way it always seemed to, some child unable yet to learn how to sleep through the weight of what this place had already made of their first week in it.

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