80: save6 The Letter
Relying on the power of her sister, Lu Lele very easily achieved her desired goal. From now on, even during winter and summer breaks, Liu Lili would live at Lu Lele's house, staying together with Lu Lele.
Furthermore, Lu Lele entrusted Lu Yanyan to "persuade" Liu Lili's parents, allowing Liu Lili to continue attending high school and university normally in the future without their interference.
The price was, naturally, shimmering white Lily Coins.
"I probably gave about one hundred thousand or so. I might give some more later, don't worry, Sister definitely knows the score and will only give the appropriate amount, so I won't be treated like a steady cash machine."
Lu Yanyan spoke lightly on the phone, as if those were simply insignificant numbers:
"Lele, go pursue your true love with ease. Sister will sweep away all obstacles for you."
Liu Lili only had minor objections to Lu Lele's interference in her family's attitude, saying a few sentences like "Lele, you didn't have to go this far, I really feel bad about it," and then accepted Lu Lele's actions.
Lu Lele vaguely felt that Liu Lili actually didn't want to follow her parents' script to attend vocational high school in the first place, and her own actions actually allowed Liu Lili to get what she wanted.
Time slipped away like flowing water.
A year later, Lu Lele and Liu Lili successfully passed the entrance exams for the high school department of Tangerine City Public Girls' Middle School. With the help of a mysterious power, they entered the same class and became deskmates once again.
As lovers, the two were finally free from any restrictions, carrying out their passionate romance without a care in the world.
In spring, they went on outings together to catch many insects and created exquisite specimens.
In summer, Lu Lele took Liu Lili to the largest water park in Tangerine City to play to their hearts' content. Water splashes and lime made up an unforgettable color in their memories.
In autumn, parks and amusement parks were the places they visited most often.
In winter, the two lovers, who loved each other dearly, built a snowman in front of their home, one big and one small. The big one was named Radish and the small one was named Tomato, corresponding to the parts that made up their noses.
Day after day of laughter and joy hurriedly passed by.
Lu Lele had long since forgotten that she still needed to roleplay a Yandere. Moreover, because she had her lover by her side every day, Lu Lele's Yandere instincts rarely showed their head at all.
The time of student days was always short, just like youth, which always passed away so easily.
In a daze, the three years of high school life were also about to reach their finish line.
Liu Lili was no longer that rustic, skinny little girl.
Now, she was dressed completely like a trendy big city girl, her personality had become much more outgoing, and her eyes always sparkled with a bright light.
As for Lu Lele, she had also blossomed into a graceful beauty. Having grown up, she looked seventy or eighty percent similar to Lu Yanyan, possessing a beauty capable of toppling nations, yet with even softer lines. She was the publicly acknowledged campus belle.
Every time she opened her shoe locker, Lu Lele could see love letters falling down like snowflakes.
Of course, Lu Lele's attitude toward these love letters was consistent and firm.
She acted even more decisively than her sister did in the past. She would throw them away without even a single glance. Over time, gradually, no one came to ask for trouble anymore.
Not long before the Gaokao.
Lu Lele hugged Liu Lili, who was using the computer, and asked:
"Lili, have you filled out your application preferences?"
"Mm." Liu Lili nodded, but for some reason, she didn't look back at Lu Lele.
"Let me take a look." Lu Lele leaned over.
"There's nothing interesting to see, it's just the one we agreed on before."
"Don't fill it out wrong."
Lu Lele didn't think much of it. Such a long time of being together day and night had made her trust Liu Lili immensely.
"I definitely won't fill it out wrong."
Liu Lili paused, then suddenly changed the subject and asked:
"By the way, Lele, can you... can you lend me some money?"
"How much?"
"It might be a bit much... 300,000."
"What does Lili need so much money for?"
"It's a secret."
Liu Lili said this, then immediately asked a baffling question:
"Speaking of which, Lele, do you plan to get your driver's license this summer?"
"I don't have that plan for now..."
Lu Lele suddenly realized something and said with a smile:
"Oh, I understand. Lili, you wanted money for this kind of thing. No problem, I'll transfer it to you right away. Remember to pick a good-looking car when the time comes."
Lu Lele felt that she understood the hidden meaning in Liu Lili's words, and she thought that it wasn't a big deal for Lili to want to buy a car.
However, on the morning after the college entrance examination results came out, Lu Lele discovered that Liu Lili was gone.
Disappearing along with Liu Lili were the valuables and soft items in her room.
Lu Lele hurriedly called Liu Lili, only to find that the phone kept showing a busy signal.
The only thing left in the room belonging to Liu Lili was an unopened envelope of letter paper.
[To my beloved lover, for your eyes only]
This was written on it, in Liu Lili's handwriting, which was familiar to Lu Lele.
Lu Lele felt very puzzled and confused. She opened the letter paper and began to read.
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To my dearest Lele.
I know that when you see this letter, you must be very surprised and very angry. Surprised by my departure without saying goodbye, angry at my betrayal of trust, for not following our agreement to take the same university, but instead choosing a school abroad.
I know that what I have done is very sorry to Lele.
But, I ask that you calm down.
My dearest lover, please spend five minutes reading through my letter once.
There are some things that cannot be said face to face. Only by writing them on paper can I speak without reservation.
My life was changed by Lele.
If I hadn't met Lele, there was a high probability I would have lived my life according to my mom's arrangements. I would go to a vocational school for high school, find a factory to work at after graduation, then marry and have children early, living the life of a bottom-tier commoner. Just like a blade of grass, living silently, dying silently.
It was Lele who changed my fate.
It was you who stood out when I was most helpless, opening the door of acceptance, so that I wouldn't have to spend terrible times at my aunt's house every weekend.
It was you who used your own connections and power to change my parents' attitude, letting them allow Lili and me to attend the same high school, and now allowing us the freedom to choose universities.
I am very grateful to Lele, and I also love Lele very much.
I remember every love word of yours that is brimming with affection in my heart. Your every gentle caress brings solace to my soul.
Lele, you never treat me like an outsider. In your view, as your lover, I am qualified to share everything that belongs to you. No matter what I want, Lele will unconditionally give it to me.
However, the problem lies exactly here.
What Lele gives me is simply too much, so much that I feel fear.
And I am so cowardly. Because of the laughable excuse of "being afraid Lele will be sad," I didn't dare to refuse Lele's gifts, so I just kept accepting them with peace of mind.
I hate my own cowardice, but I don't have the courage to change it, nor do I have the courage to say no to Lele.
You also know, Lele, that I am a very realistic person. The life you let me experience is indeed fascinating. I admit, I was infatuated. That life is like a drug; once touched, it cannot be stopped.
I was afraid that refusing Lele would make me unable to live that intoxicating life anymore, so I just kept retreating, numbing myself, until I realized that I couldn't go on like this.
The life of luxury and debauchery that I spent with Lele corroded me, making me lose my correct self-cognition.
But when I returned to my own home that summer, the huge contrast gave me a slap in the face, making me realize that all this beauty is merely a castle in the air. It is just a life that belongs to Lele and was shared by Lele to me, a life that shouldn't have belonged to me in the first place.
Of course, I could continue to accept it with peace of mind, thoroughly rotting away, listening to Lele's arrangements for everything, becoming Lele's accessory, and living that life of drunken dreams forever.
But, I am also a person with dignity.
I do not wish for the bond between Lele and me to be Lele's unilateral love and charity.
That would make me appear very humble. A person who can only live in the pity and charity of others is destined to be unworthy of respect.
I believe that true love is definitely not unilateral charity, but the exchange and sharing of affection between each other.
I also hope to be able to give Lele an equal return, to repay the money and love Lele once invested in me.
But, the current me simply cannot do it.
Lele, your conditions are simply too superior. Even the most precious thing I possess is nothing more than an insignificant object to you.
Therefore, I must improve myself.
Actually, Lele, I have always had a dream, which is to become a manga artist, to draw manga that is liked by people all over the world.
I want to go to the best university abroad for further study, to become an excellent manga artist in the future, and to earn lots and lots of money by drawing manga, at least no less than Lele's pocket money.
The tuition for that university is 50,000 Lily Coins per year. I borrowed 300,000 from Lele, which is exactly enough for me to finish four years of university there and maintain a basic livelihood.
The current me is not worthy of a Lele with such superior conditions. Only when I myself climb to the same class as Lele can I truly be worthy of you.
Lele, perhaps you don't know, every time you unconditionally gave me love and charity, although I would accept it with a smile, it doesn't mean I truly hoped to receive it.
I owe Lele too many things, yet I don't even have a chance to repay them.
I don't hope that Lele only loves my body. I hope to create value that can be recognized by Lele through my own efforts.
That is, my personal value.
I don't want Lele to treat me like a little pet, to be treated by Lele as your possession, summoned at a beck and call and dismissed at a wave.
I hope to have an equal relationship with Lele. I want to live equally with Lele, communicate equally, and pass days equally, instead of having to be careful during every conversation, afraid of displeasing Lele.
But, with the current me, I cannot do it.
Even if Lele says things like "Lili and I are of course equal," it cannot change the cruel reality.
I understand very well that if my personal value is not proven, I will forever just be Lele's accessory.
If I continue to stay by Lele's side for university, Lele, you will definitely use various powers to continue supporting me, making my success incredibly easy.
But, I do not wish for that.
Therefore, I choose to temporarily stay away from Lele and go to a foreign country alone to chase my dream.
I want to prove that I am excellent enough to become the best manga artist in this world even without Lele's help.
I know that Lele loves me deeply.
I also equally deeply love Lele. I want to spend the long years with Lele, want to marry Lele, adopt a cute daughter, and become lovers who will never be separated.
Wait until I become a person whose own value is enough to be worthy of Lele. I will come back to meet Lele again, and I promise that I definitely won't let Lele wait too long.
On the day I come back to find you, I will definitely have become incomparably strong, become capable of being worthy of Lele, and become a star shining in the night sky just like Lele.
When that day comes, let us get married.
We will have a grand wedding, and I, too, will become an outstanding bride just like Lele.
Lele, this letter is absolutely not to complain or to vent, but to write down the truest voice in my heart.
Lele, I love you.
Actually, writing here, I have already started crying. Perhaps you have already noticed the traces of water soaking the letter paper.
I am not willing to separate from Lele, just as Lele must also be unwilling for me to leave.
But precisely because of this, this is also what I must do. I believe that a brief separation is for a better reunion.
At the moment we meet again, I will personally apologize to Lele, for this one willfulness of my life.
In the days that I am not here, I hope everything goes well for you, do not neglect your studies, and let your sister down.
Lele, wait for my good news.
I will definitely become a star just like you.
—Liu Lili, who loves you forever