December 9, 2002
After sending you goodnight messages for an entire month, you finally replied. Even though it was just “Mhm mhm,” I was already content. Because it was the first time you ever messaged me on your own. You even said you wanted your mother to use an iPhone too, and you were worried I might not have enough pocket money…
Jiang Kewei, you’re always so thoughtful. Don’t worry. Even if your mom wants one, or your dad, your grandparents, your uncles, aunts, cousins—everyone in your family wants one—I can still afford it.
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August 22, 2003
Today is Qixi Festival. I messaged you in the morning and asked you to hang out. You turned me down, saying you weren’t feeling well. When I offered to take you to the hospital, you refused again.
So I had my driver take a private doctor to your house, but when they got there, your aunt said you had gone out with someone else. I was afraid something bad might happen to you and drove around looking for you the entire morning. In the end, I saw you with another guy at the KIOI co-branded store…
By the time I got home, the 990 roses I had prepared had already withered—just like my heart. I drank a little to numb the pain, and although it made my head hurt, at least my heart didn’t hurt as much.
I don’t think you lied to me on purpose. You probably just wanted to go shopping more. So I had my dad become a franchisee of KIOI. Jiang Kewei, next time you want to go, just tell me. Don’t go with that guy anymore.
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October 25, 2004
Jiang Kewei, today is your birthday. I spent a long time picking out a gift because I thought only the best gift would suit you. But when I showed up with the present, I saw you sitting in a cake shop with someone else, eating the cake he bought for you…
I blamed myself. I didn’t even know what kind of cake you liked. So I hired the baker who made that cake. Next time you want to eat it, just come to my place.
April 27, 2005
Jiang Kewei, you finally agreed to go to school with me. I was so happy.
But do you know? When I said it was “on the way” to pick you up, that was a lie. From my house to yours, it takes an extra hour. I got up at 4 a.m. today, but I was still late to your place. You were mad, and I felt so guilty.
But it’s okay. I already asked my dad to buy a villa near your house. From now on, I can pick you up and drop you off every day.
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June 25, 2006
Today was the final exam. After Chinese class, you asked Song Qingyu to come find me and say you had fallen down. Do you know how panicked I was? I wished I had wings so I could fly to you immediately.
To me, you’re more important than anything.
To be honest, I don’t like being treated like a fool. I also don’t like your friends seeing me as some clown. But… as long as you’re okay, that’s enough for me.
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March 16, 2007
Graduation exams are coming up soon. You’ve been ignoring me a lot lately, but I know—it’s just because you want to work hard and get into a good middle school.
Don’t worry, Jiang Kewei. I asked my dad to donate a whole building to Jiangcheng No.1 High School. As long as you want to go there, I’ll make sure you do.
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August 1, 2007
Jiang Kewei, congratulations on being accepted into Jiangcheng No.1 High School. You must be surprised.
I told you already—you would definitely get in.
I got full marks and told the principal that unless both you and I were admitted together, I’d go to the provincial experimental school instead.
Sure, that school is great, but what’s the point of life without you in it?
I didn’t tell you about this because I didn’t want to put pressure on you. In this lifetime, just quietly staying by your side is enough for me.