Lu Huaiqian didn’t drink.
In these three years, aside from their wedding day, Shi Yi had never seen him drink, let alone drunk.
Shi Yi couldn’t help freezing for a moment.
Right in that instant of his shock, a strong hand suddenly gripped his arm and pulled him into an unfamiliar, burning-hot embrace.
Right after, a voice on the verge of breaking, thick with tears, fell against his ear, “Shi Yi, let me hold you, just once, is that all right? Please.”
“Xiao Yi…”
“Baby…”
“Lu Huaiqian, are you out of your fucking mind?! What kind of drunken fit is this?! Who the hell is your baby?! Don’t disgust me here!”
Shi Yi, snapping back to himself, exploded instantly, shoving hard at Lu Huaiqian to push him away, “Let go of me! Let go of me right now! Do you hear me?! Let go!!!”
“You freak! Let go of me! Did I say you could hold me?! Did I give you permission to hold me?! Don’t you dare have a drunken fit on me!”
“Pervert! Lu Huaiqian, you pervert! I’m not gay! Let go! You disgust me!”
“Don’t do this, baby, don’t do this, can’t you not be so cruel to me? Please, don’t be so cruel to me, please. Don’t be this cruel to me, I just, I just like you, I really just like you.”
Every word cut into his ears like a blade, and Lu Huaiqian was hurting so badly he could barely breathe. He thought he must be drunk.
He wished he were drunk.
If only all of this were just a nightmare.
If only Shi Yi could like him even a little.
Silent wetness soaked into Shi Yi’s pajamas.
Shi Yi only felt that the person holding him disgusted him, the things he said disgusted him, and saying he liked him disgusted him even more!
“Who the hell wants your liking?! Your liking disgusts me! Disgusting, disgusting, disgusting, I said disgusting, do you hear me?! Do you understand?! Let go of me! Lu Huaiqian, let go of me!”
Shi Yi shoved at him with all his strength, but the hands on his back showed no sign at all of loosening, and instead held him tighter and tighter, as if trying to crush him whole.
The pain running through his body, the foul smell of alcohol near his nose, and the body heat of another man that wasn’t his own, all of it disgusted him.
Disgusted him to the point of wanting to throw up!
Rage kept coiling and rising, and Shi Yi, unable to bear it any longer, sank his teeth straight into the shoulder in front of him, using all his strength.
Lu Huaiqian, holding him, didn’t let go.
Shi Yi, biting him, didn’t let go either.
Time passed second by second, and the taste of blood began spreading in Shi Yi’s mouth, but the grip of the hand on his waist didn’t loosen in the slightest.
Shi Yi’s fury reached its peak, he wished he could crush Lu Huaiqian to pieces, but it was he who was now close to being crushed, “Let go, Lu Huaiqian, let go of me, you’re hurting me! You lunatic, you pervert! Are you trying to crush my bones to pieces?! Then why don’t you just kill me outright!”
Shi Yi had truly shouted this out at the top of his lungs.
He felt like his waist was really about to snap.
The moment his words landed, in the next instant Lu Huaiqian suddenly let go, his voice full of guilt and heartache, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, where did I hurt you…”
“Crack!”
A loud slap rang out at the doorway of Shi Yi’s bedroom, and Lu Huaiqian’s tear-streaked face was knocked to one side.
“Lu Huaiqian, you disgust me!”
Lu Huaiqian froze for a moment, then lowered his eyes and met Shi Yi’s furious gaze with sorrow, “I’m sorry, let me see where it hurts? Was I too rough?”
“Get out, don’t touch me! If you want to lose your mind, go do it somewhere else! Don’t stand here where I have to look at you!” Shi Yi’s eyes were full of fury as he raised his hand and shoved hard to push Lu Huaiqian out of his bedroom.
Lu Huaiqian stumbled back from the shove, reached out to catch the door, and looked at Shi Yi with reluctance, opening his mouth several times as if to say something and stopping. Finally, as if he’d made up his mind, he said hoarsely, “Xiao Yi, marrying me, has it really wronged you so much?”
Shi Yi glared at him, without a moment’s hesitation, “Yes! It’s not being wronged, it’s disgust!”
Lu Huaiqian’s heart was stabbed again, “I’m sorry, I’m really sorry, I never meant for it to be like this, I really never meant for it to be like this. I thought being with me, I could give you a good life. I thought I could make you happy.”
Shi Yi wanted to laugh, he really did want to laugh, “You think being with you would give me a good life? What makes you think being with you would make me happy, would give me a good life? Just because of this pathetic state you’re in? Take a good look at how disgusting you look right now.”
Shi Yi took out his phone in retaliation, opened the camera, and pointed it at Lu Huaiqian’s wretched state, “Crying and begging a man to love you, how disgusting. Lu Huaiqian, you really disgust me, look at yourself, look at what you look like right now!”
Lu Huaiqian leaned weakly against the door, staring fixedly at Shi Yi, letting him film him completely.
Seeing him look so indifferent to it, Shi Yi suddenly found it boring, “Stop looking at me, damn it, get out.”
Shi Yi put his phone away, rushed forward again, and shoved Lu Huaiqian hard out of his bedroom.
Then, with a bang, the door was slammed shut.
“Disgusting! Lu Huaiqian is a fucking lunatic!” The taste of blood still lingered in his mouth, and Shi Yi frowned, spitting a few times in disgust, then turned and went to the bathroom to run the shower.
The smell of blood, the smell of it all, everything stank!
Lu Huaiqian must really have lost his mind, actually daring to hold him!
He was really getting more and more presumptuous by the day.
No, he had to punish Lu Huaiqian severely for this, or else this time it was forcing a hug, next time it would be forcing a kiss!
Shi Yi angrily turned off the shower, grabbed a towel, and as he wrapped it around himself and walked out, he thought that tomorrow he’d go find a place and move out, and see if Lu Huaiqian would still dare to act crazy on him under the cover of alcohol after that.
Still, he didn’t expect Lu Huaiqian to actually cry. That was something he hadn’t seen coming.
Shi Yi changed into his pajamas and flopped back onto the bed, and Lu Huaiqian’s tear-streaked, pained face couldn’t help surfacing in his mind again.
It made him curl his lip in contempt.
Crying over this?
He himself, a man, had lost all dignity and face, forced into marrying another man, and he hadn’t cried, so what did Lu Huaiqian have to cry about?
An unfamiliar feeling welled up along the reddened rims of his eyes, streaming down cheeks drained of all color, and finally soaking into his neck.
A man of one meter eighty-nine, nearly one meter ninety tall, was curled up against the wall in the corridor, his face covered in tears, his forcibly suppressed sobs broken and mournful in the silent hallway.
After all these years, it was time to wake from this dream.
He really did need to let go now.
It hurt, everywhere hurt, and he couldn’t bear to let go.
It felt like a piece had been dug out of his heart.
But there was no other way.
Lu Huaiqian pulled out his phone with a trembling hand, so weak, defeated, and reluctant that he barely had the strength left to type.
But he had to make the decision now, or he might never be able to let go at all.
Wet drops fell onto the phone screen, blurring his vision.
【Lu Huaiqian: Lawyer Zhao, could you please help me settle the assets under my name, and draft a divorce agreement.】