“Then why did you make our Jiji cry?”
“I’m sorry, Auntie. It was my fault.”
“Do you think apologizing now will fix anything? You’ve already hurt Jiji’s heart.”
“I will never hurt him again. I’ll do everything I can to make it up to him.”
Shen Yandong kept apologizing, his attitude humble, completely devoid of the arrogance he once had in high school.
Not to mention his parents, even Di Zhe, standing at the side, felt his resolve soften as he watched.
Damn it… if Shen Yandong had treated him like this earlier, how different things would have been. He had spent two whole years getting nothing but cold shoulders. No, wait, even if Shen Yandong had been kind to him back then, he still couldn’t have ended up as the submissive one…
“Y…. you…” By the end, even his mother found herself at a loss for words.
Di Zhe’s father, on the other hand, observed his son’s expression, considered for a moment and then smoothed things over diplomatically. “Alright, alright, let’s just eat. The kids’ matters, they’ll handle them themselves.”
I don’t know how to handle it at all!!
Di Zhe screamed inwardly.
He had already been admitted, already enrolled. Classes had started. There was no way he could just switch universities now. Even if he went to the counselor to request a dorm change, it probably wouldn’t be arranged anytime soon.
And how was he even supposed to explain it? Tell the counselor that he and Shen Yandong didn’t get along? At best, they’d just brush it off and tell them to work it out.
Di Zhe returned to the dorm together with Shen Yandong.
Shen Yandong hadn’t finished unpacking yet. One by one, he took out his clothes, hanging up the outerwear and neatly folding the rest.
After everything that had happened today, Di Zhe had completely forgotten about his plan to game with friends that night.
Only after returning did he remember that he had turned off message notifications earlier. He needed to open the app for messages to come through.
Di Zhe hurriedly sent out a round of apologies.
No, a flood of messages immediately popped up.
But that wasn’t the most important issue right now. The most important question was, who had sold him out?!
As far as he knew, aside from his parents, only his homeroom teacher knew that he had applied to F University.
Taking advantage of the fact that Shen Yandong had gone out to buy something, Di Zhe went straight to ask his homeroom teacher.
Homeroom Teacher: “Shen Yandong did ask me but I didn’t tell him.”
Homeroom Teacher: “I thought he had given up but after a while, he came back and said he had changed his application. When I looked, it was exactly the same as yours. I found it quite strange.”
Di Zhe: “You should’ve told me!”
Homeroom Teacher: “Watch your tone.”
Homeroom Teacher: “Besides, how could I have told you? I couldn’t even find you back then, remember?”
Homeroom Teacher: “Didn’t you disappear off the face of the earth for a while? Shen Yandong was looking for you everywhere. The way he looked was honestly a bit frightening, I’ve never seen him like that.”
Di Zhe’s hands froze over the keyboard.
Di Zhe: “Shen Yandong was looking for me?”
Homeroom Teacher: “Yes, everyone knows. He probably asked all your friends too. You can check with them, maybe one of them told him your college choice.”
Di Zhe thought about it. That was exactly why he hadn’t told any of them, he knew none of those guys could keep their mouths shut.
Then he remembered that someone had mentioned in the group chat before that Shen Yandong had looked for him.
Di Zhe couldn’t calm down.
He opened a private chat with one of his close friends.
Di Zhe: “While I was gone, Shen Yandong was looking for me?”
Friend: “Bro… do you want the truth? I’m afraid it’ll bother you.”
Di Zhe gathered his courage. “Just tell me the truth.”
Friend: “Yeah, he was. He went around harassing every single one of us like a madman.”
“I was seriously freaked out, you know?”
“He’s usually so aloof but back then he completely lost it. Like a ghost, his eyes were bloodshot, he didn’t sleep at night and he even went to people’s homes asking around.”
“At that time, none of us knew where you were. If I had known, I might’ve told him. Sorry, bro, I almost betrayed you.”
Di Zhe replied that it was fine.
But now he was even more confused. He had guarded himself even against his closest friends, so how had Shen Yandong still managed to find him?
And… Shen Yandong had really gone that far?
Di Zhe felt like his mind was a complete mess. His imagination wasn’t vivid enough to picture Shen Yandong in such a frantic, almost deranged state.
Click.
Just as he was thinking about it, Shen Yandong returned.
Di Zhe quickly closed the chat window on his computer.
Shen Yandong plugged in an electric mosquito repellent, then placed a mosquito repellent wristband on Di Zhe’s desk. “You attract mosquitoes easily. Wear this. There are quite a lot of mosquitoes here. I’ll set up your mosquito net as well.”
Di Zhe: “?”
Di Zhe: “What are you doing??”
Shen Yandong: “I’m worried mosquitoes will bite you and you won’t sleep well at night.”
Di Zhe swallowed back what he wanted to say.
I’m not afraid of mosquitoes biting me, I’m more afraid of you biting me. That day, you even left teeth marks on my chest and it took two or three days for them to fade…
There was no way he could say something that embarrassing out loud.
Di Zhe let out a sigh. He had been feeling uneasy for most of the day and had been thinking things over just as long.
He couldn’t keep going on like this.
Did he not want to live his life anymore?
He still wanted to enjoy a bright and free college life.
Scratching his head, Di Zhe spoke awkwardly, “No need, Shen Yandong. Really, you don’t have to be so polite with me.”
“How should I put this…”
“I heard what you said to my parents today but… I think what’s in the past should stay in the past. Just let it go.”
Shen Yandong’s expression darkened instantly. “How can it just be let go? We’ve already slept together.”
Di Zhe nearly jumped up. “Shut up!”
Shen Yandong fell silent, only staring at him with a heavy, shadowed gaze.
Whether it was out of embarrassment or urgency, Di Zhe’s face flushed red. “So… we’ve already tried it, right? And it didn’t work out.”
He steeled himself. “I won’t hold what happened that day against you and you shouldn’t bring it up either. Let’s just pretend it never happened.”
Before he could even finish speaking, his words faltered.
He saw Shen Yandong’s eyes, fixed on him without blinking, gradually turning red.
It was unsettling.
Like a trapped beast, Shen Yandong asked in a low, almost incredulous voice, “Pretend it never happened? How do you pretend it never happened? If that night can be erased, then what about the two years before that? You’re just going to throw all of it away?”
Di Zhe didn’t dare meet his eyes. He turned his head aside, like a child who had done something wrong and was trying to run away, stubbornly saying, “Mm.”
Awkwardly, he thought, I’m the one who got… so why do you look so aggrieved?
Lowering his head, he added, “From now on, let’s just be ordinary classmates.”
Shen Yandong: “No.”
Di Zhe’s shoulders tensed. He sighed again, helpless. “Shen Yandong, why are you doing this? Back in high school, I never felt like you liked me that much, actually, if you had shown it earlier, I probably would’ve given up on you a long time ago.”
“Forget it. Let’s just say it’s my fault for wasting your time but I wasted my own time too. In the end, it’s fair for both of us.”
“Honestly, people warned me before, said alphas and betas aren’t compatible. And you even want to be on top. Sigh… we really don’t suit each other. Let’s just drop it.”
Shen Yandong stepped forward. “How are we not compatible? You said it yourself, your pheromones reacted the moment you saw me, saying you liked me.”
Di Zhe immediately stood up, his entire body on guard. “That was before. And besides, you’re a beta, you can’t even smell it.”
In truth, his pheromones were a complete mess right now but since Shen Yandong was a beta and couldn’t sense them, he could lie freely. “Sorry but now when I see you, I don’t feel anything anymore.”
He truly didn’t want to be the submissive one.
Di Zhe said, “Not liking you means not liking you. You said it yourself before, I’m not someone who sticks to things. It’s a pity but that’s just how I am. When I like someone, I can’t stop myself. And when I don’t, I move on.”
Even as he said it, his chest felt a little sour.
Under his explanation, Shen Yandong seemed to gradually calm down yet the aura around him grew even darker, more oppressive, making Di Zhe feel increasingly uneasy.
It reminded him of that night.
It really felt like facing a stranger.
He realized that saying he no longer liked Shen Yandong wasn’t entirely a lie.
The person he had liked was the aloof, untouchable Shen Yandong.
He had never known that Shen Yandong had such a dark, brooding side.
After listening to everything, Shen Yandong’s hands tightened, then loosened, then tightened again before relaxing once more, as if he had no breath left, as if he couldn’t align himself with Di Zhe’s words. In a low voice, he asked, “Then if you fall for me again… would that be enough?”
Di Zhe froze, then quickly replied, “I won’t fall for you again.” His tone grew urgent. “I’ve already said it, you’re a beta, I’m an alpha. We’re not compatible by nature.”
Shen Yandong was stubborn. “I don’t think so.”
Di Zhe was left speechless.
So the stories about Shen Yandong losing his mind, he was beginning to see a glimpse of it now.
But even if Shen Yandong had gone crazy, there was no way he was going to give himself up like that.
For a fleeting moment, he had even wondered, if he suggested that Shen Yandong take the submissive role, would he agree? But he quickly dismissed the thought. Shen Yandong was too intense, too proud, too hard to control. Once things started, he probably wouldn’t be able to protect himself in the long run. Who could stay on guard all the time?
Shen Yandong pressed on relentlessly, “Why are betas and alphas incompatible? Didn’t we do just fine that day? You were very comfortable, you even climaxed multiple times.”
You!
Di Zhe’s face flushed bright red. He retorted defensively, “I wasn’t even in my heat that day!”
“I, I wouldn’t have finished that quickly if I were in heat.” Lifting his chin stubbornly, he blurted out without thinking, “Let me be direct, I’m an alpha. Our libido is too strong. It’s not something a beta can handle!”
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ChaptersChapter 1 · Love at first sightChapter 2 · Lack of discretionChapter 3 · ShamelessChapter 4 · UnreasonableChapter 5 · PerseveranceChapter 6 · College Entrance Examination EndChapter 7 · Graduation dinnerChapter 8 · Confession nightChapter 9 · Pressing in step by stepChapter 10 · Enough is enoughChapter 11 · A huge blowChapter 12 · University start dateChapter 13 · Roommate meetingChapter 14 · Relentless harassmentChapter 15 · I’ll pick you upChapter 16 · It’s my vulnerable periodChapter 17 · Voluntary datingChapter 18 · Open your heartChapter 19 · Obedient to allChapter 20 · Not a virginChapter 21 · Swear to love meChapter 22 · Youthful DaydreamsChapter 23 · Teenage ThoughtsChapter 24 · EmptyChapter 25 · Extremely anxiousChapter 26 · Too lazy to struggleChapter 27 · From now on