We would eventually have fun chatting with each other to the point where Amara once went, “Alright, it’s getting late.
I had fun speaking with you, but I should rest now.
Good night” “Good night” is what I texted to return the favor.
Eventually, while I was friends with her, I began to feel something for her.
[Borderline Powerful Disorganization has been unlocked Borderline Powerful Disorganization has been Triggered.] I didn’t know why, but I always felt compelled to get Amara’s attention.
For some reason, I just kept on traumadumping to her.
Amara once told me she couldn’t handle all my problems because she had her own.
I don’t know why I did what I did but for some reason…..I blocked her on Instagram.
Her reaction was one of devastating shock at my actions.
It felt like I needed to obsessive over her for some reason, I couldn’t control it…my emotions simply took over.
The next thing I knew, I was anxiously texting her again, then unsending my messages.
It annoyed her so much that she had to tell me to “f★☆k off,” and I accepted it by saying “okay.” For the next 6 months, I would spend it being depressed over her.
I was exhausting to deal with when my energy was nothing but negativity, with little to no positivity.
Who would want to deal with a person like me anyway?
[Character Profile: Player #0 Name: Damien Zhao Age: 14 Emotional Status: Abnormal] [Regression Cycle has been Triggered Depressing Personal Disorganization has been Triggered] [Regression Cycle has been activated: Cause of Death: Stabbed by the Dagger of “F★☆k Off” Regression Cycle: 4th turn → 5th turn] Despite taking an advanced math class in preparation in the summer.
I started to give up on my grade in the 2nd semester of the advanced math class, which resulted in a D.
I had to replace that D to improve my academic GPA and make sure I had more chances to choose what I wanted for myself.
[Update on personal skills: Regression level: 4 Borderline Powerful Disorganization level: 1 Depressing Personal Disorganization level: 1 Understanding of Self: locked]