It was around age 6 that I started school, which was kindergarten, considering I grew up in America.
I recall a few memories from back then.
I recall playing around with Christmas gifts.
Doing things I felt like I wasn’t supposed to do.
I don’t know why, but I still did some things that seemed unusual for a kid.
Just minor actions that made me question “hm….
Why did I do this back then?” I remember the name of my kindergarten best friend.
We went to a babysitter after school let out.
We were friends in kindergarten until he left with his family for China.
I recall him playing in the small children’s playground.
He was just swinging on the monkey bar.
I don’t know why, but I decided to just go right in front of him.
It was a dumb move, I’m aware, and I got kicked in the face.
My mom had been shocked at why on Earth I had a black eye when she picked me up.
I don’t recall her reaction when I explained to her that my best friend kicked me in the face because I stood in front of him.
I truly don’t know why I did that.
Did I want attention?
Did I not know how to get the attention I wanted back then?
Are these memories helpful in making me question why I do such odd and weirdly “self-harmful” ways?
Just exactly why do I do something like this?
I have no idea why I do it, but if anyone else knows why, I’d love to hear it.
Please do tell me, I wish I knew why I would do such foolish actions.
[You have acquired the title: The Odd One ] So much for having a best friend when mine in kindergarten had already left and was in China.
I still remember his full name back then, though, and remembered the company I was in with him.
I wonder how he is doing now and if he is still in China.
I sometimes imagine what it would be like if we ever crossed paths again.
I see the possibility of him being back in America, though I’m sure he would have forgotten about me.
I often remember details about people if I have a strong enough emotional attachment to them.
I guess one could say I was unintentionally abandoned by this young boy.
I mean, we were just a 6-year-old and a 7-year-old, anyway.
Yet from teenagehood to young adulthood, I remember his full name and some important memories about my first-ever best friend.
[Regression Cycle has been activated: Cause of Regression: First best friend leaving Regression Cycle: 1st turn → 2nd turn]