A few days after the fansign, we saw a few results.
Firstly, each member’s direct camera videos gained a lot of attention and high views on NeoTube. Additionally, the fansign became a hot topic on social media with tons of reviews shared.
The most discussed topic was Han Seungbeom’s face and my response.
— Han Seungbeom is insane in real life. His face alone is like 8K quality. And he held my hand and said something so sweetly, but I can’t remember anything from then on.
└ You too……? Me too……
└ (2) From the middle, my memory’s a blur. I only remember being happy
└ Is it for real that we all went to the fansign and collectively lost our minds?
— PT7 Fansign Review: I’ve completely forgotten about the 500 dead fish-eyed people I’ve been a fan of until now. Han Seungbeom smells nice. The end.
I just did what I usually do, there wasn’t anything particularly new about it. So, I honestly didn’t expect them to like it this much. I guess it’s probably because they’ve been hurt by idols who disregarded their fans in the past.
If I hunted those bastards down and gave them a good beating, would it make idol fans happier?
I scrolled down the community with that thought.
— Doesn’t the Captain love his fans too much? I went to SI mini fansign, and he actually remembered me … Seriously, who are the stupid bastards who called this sweet guy blunt and scary?
└ Pantheion
└ I’m sorry
It seemed like some fans were surprised by my attitude, which was somewhat different from the image I had shown on broadcasts or the members’ evaluations. I didn’t think I had changed my attitude that dramatically, but when I think about the horrified faces of the Pantheion’s members whenever I spoke with fans, as if they were seeing someone with a double personality, I couldn’t just deny it.
“I’m always amazed when I see that hyung doing fan service. Our hyung, if only he could treat us half as sweetly as he treats his fans, how great would that be, huh?”
“Go practice, pretty boy.”
“Argh, not that kind of thing!”
“Get lost.”
I even had that kind of conversation with Lee Chise once.
Then or now, I had no intention of fixing this personality.
‘Growing up so clumsily……’
I was quite satisfied that the fansign event ended successfully, with no one getting hurt. However, that didn’t mean there were no issues at all.
— Everyone shut up and stop posting fansign reviews! What are you going to do if the fansign cut gets even higher? I really can’t handle it getting any higher. It was already super competitive this time too ㅠㅠ
— Is it for real that PT7 fansign cut was higher than RZ this time?
└ No, no, don’t cross the line. You’re losing your mind just because the Muggles are hyping up Freepan
└ What do you mean with
don’t cross the line
? LOL, what Muggles see is the real deal; and for the record, I switched from Sun.Shine to Muse, and the fansign cut competition is even tougher here. That’s just the fact.
— It’s a temporary group anyway, they won’t be here for long, so they’re just burning brightly for a short time. What can we do? Once it’s over, you won’t be able to see them anymore lololol Don’t push yourselves too hard, Muses~
└ Scared about being replaced already? If your idols were on another level like Prism sunbaenims in their active days, you guys wouldn’t need to be having this kind of power struggle lol
The clash between Raize’s fandoms, Sunshine, and Muse, had begun in earnest.
The sharp-edged Sunshine, determined to protect their top spot; the Muse, whose combat power had ripened after finishing the survival program; and the Sera, who was already so done with everything and just wanted a full-group comeback—the incredible collaboration of these forces was causing the boy group scene to roll along in a chaotic mess.
And that wasn’t the only problem.
— No, the Captain is so much younger than me, but why is he … why is he acting so much like an Oppa? I was hiding my face behind my hair because I was embarrassed, but he brushed my hair aside … My face was burning up at that moment. That’s definitely not something a 20-year-old rookie should be doing
└ A real older brother wouldn’t do that
└ Is that so? I’m not really curious.
— A baby is an oppa … I’m a Grandma … a Grandma … can I call you Oppa?
— I felt the scent of a mature man from that Seung man
“Ha……”
It seemed like the fans were starting to feel a bit of discomfort about my age.
What’s going on, Seo Yutae? I thought you were perfectly portraying the 20-year-old Han Seungbeom?
I never imagined that the fans would be getting that feeling without me even realizing it. I had tried so hard to avoid hearing things like, “
Han Seungbeom is trying to imitate Seo Yutae haha
“, but it was leaking out little by little unconsciously. I really couldn’t believe this situation.
And whenever I saw younger fans referring to themselves as
grandma
or using the term
baby
, I felt an indescribable discomfort. How could they call themselves
‘grandma
‘ when they’re only in their early twenties? Where on earth did this strange culture come from?
‘….I have a conscience too.’
What do you mean grandma
?
You all look so much younger to me
.
The baby is you, you.
Sera had a slightly higher average age than Muse. It was only natural. Prism was a veteran idol group, and our fans had grown older with us.
Hearing things from fans much younger than me that I had never even heard from Seras, who were around my age, made my heart feel heavy. Of course, if the Muses were happy, it was fine. It was just that my conscience pricked me, and occasionally, those who knew my true identity would say nonsense.
[7: Baby hehe]
[Young Master 1: How interesting.]
What would happen to my career if I committed a crime?
Perhaps I should just commit it first, and then figure it out later.
As I was trying to suppress the rising murderous intent, I heard the sound of idiots babbling beside me.
“Ahh, you fool! Because of you, Myumyus are still confused!”
“It’s not my fault.”
“…….”
Oh, wait, there was one more.
The hot topic after the fansign.
[Han Seungbeom P]
[How is he INTP]
[Character Misinterpretation]
[Nagi Zen I]
As I remembered our names dominating the trending searches, I pressed my eyelids tightly with the back of my hand.
‘Those four alphabet letters … how much significance could they possibly have for them to talk about it all day?’
I seriously have no idea how Korea ended up being taken over by personality tests.
Why on earth are humans so interested in each other’s personalities? Why do they want to analyze them?
Even if you studied them hard, the only conclusion you’d come up with would be ‘
everyone is like X
‘.
Ah, except for our beloved fans.
‘I can’t make sense of it. Whatever, I don’t understand, let’s just live with it.’
“Are they still talking about that?”
“Yeah, I think some clarification is needed.”
Do Yuda, who had been tightly squeezing Nagi Zen’s head, sighed at my question and showed me his SNS timeline.
Nagi Zen is an INTP … I still can’t make sense of it. This is the most absurd thing I’ve heard this year.
Han Seungbeom is a P? Excuse me, could you please not compare me to him? I’m not that diligent.
I saw Nagi Zen and Do Yuda capture an introvert and literally cook him alive, so what nonsense is this?
“How can you be an I, you rascal! The only I’s on our group are Kiryang-hyung and Seungbeom-hyung!”
I felt a strong urge to just pretend I didn’t see them and leave them alone. No matter how much I read through the timeline, there was nothing I could understand. However, since the cameras for the reality show were already rolling in the dorm, I put on a very sincere expression and asked in a sweet tone.
“What’s the problem?”
“He did a weird test, so the result came out weirdly. Does he look like an introvert to you, hyung?”
I looked back at Zen at Do Yuda’s words.
Then, with a shy look on his face, Zen made a heart with his hands and explained it to me.
“I took the challenge in Korean.”
“I knew it. There’s a perfectly fine translation of the test in Japanese, so why did you have to do it in Korean!”
“It took three minutes. I saved the photo and got an INTP.”
‘Three minutes? Save the photo?’
The test Do Yuda gave me wasn’t something that could be finished in three minutes, and it would have taken Zen, who wasn’t fluent in Korean, even longer. But 3 minutes? And saving the result as a photo? Something was definitely wrong.
“What on earth did you do?”
Zen showed me his phone in response to my question.
On the screen, there was a website that was colorfully designed.
[Heart-pounding Office Worker Type Test! What type of office worker are you? A productivity pro or a stuck-in-old-ways dinosaur?]
[Approaches the boss first, greets with a cheerful smile, and says ‘Hello!’ / ☞ Doesn’t greet anyone.]
Out of the oddly extreme options, it was the latter that Zen chose.
I raised an eyebrow at him and said, “You always go around greeting everyone.”
“I don’t have a boss to greet.”
So, why on earth did someone with no boss to greet pick that test?
It gave me a headache.
‘….I don’t know, I just don’t.’
I figured that if this scene aired on the reality show, it would somehow explain things, so I just left Zen alone. Then, Do Yuda opened his wide eyes and glared at me.
“Hyung, you’re not in a position to talk either. Myumyus think it’s strange that you’re a P. It’s funny, isn’t it? People think you’re super calculated. But our hyung is just someone who works hard without any plan. People need to figure out who you really are quickly. How can someone who just works and doesn’t eat, sleep, or even check the time unless someone takes care of him be a planner?”
I quietly watched Do Yuda, who was rambling on with complaints, and then asked.
“…Are you addicted to NBCI?”
“It’s MBTI, okay? And it’s not an addiction, it’s a hyperfixation. You’re always on time for schedules and practice, but always late for meals and hangouts, it really drives me crazy. Why do you act like replying to messages is such a hassle? When we first met, your messenger had 999+ messages, and it’s still like that! That ‘
7
’ person always gets ignored, I’m starting to feel sorry for them! And the ‘
Young Master 1
’ keeps calling until you give them a response, it’s scary! And what about me? Would it kill you to at least add ‘
ㅇ
‘
1
twice? I even add a squiggly line to my emoticons! Hyung, if you start dating, you’ll get dumped in a month.”
It seemed like someone was barking something from behind me.
I pretended not to see Do Yuda, who was pouring out his complaints like a broken dam, and took my phone out of my pocket to check the new messages that had arrived.
[RH Entertainment’s Lim Seunghoon: Seungbeom-ssi, thank you for contacting me. I’m really happy to be able to have a conversation with you. Where would be a more convenient place for you?]
In the midst of that, Do Yuda, who had approached quietly from behind, whispered to me with a serious tone.
“Reply.”
At those words, I rolled my eyes and stared at him.
Then, I spoke quietly, “…You’re talking so casually?”
2
“I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry!”
Whatever happened to the tough act from a moment ago? Do Yuda tucked his tail and hid behind Woo Kangwon. Then, obviously feeling safe under the protection of Woo Kangwon, who was smiling sheepishly, he shouted fearlessly.
“You didn’t even know it was a meme! You’re such a fool, hyung!”
It seemed like there were tears gathering at the corners of his eyes, but I didn’t pay it any mind.
‘As long as we got enough material for the reality show, what else matters?’
***
Late at night, after completing my schedule, I got in the car and got off alone at a bar in the center of Seoul.
And with a heart that had sunk deeply, different from before, I moved forward.
“…….”
I went straight inside and knocked on the door of the private room. When I opened it, the man inside, who had been hunched over as if nervous about the surrounding atmosphere, quickly stood up. I bowed my head slightly towards him.
“Hello, Manager-nim.”
“Hello. Seungbeom-ssi……”
“That person, he’s not our manager. He is Director Kang Hyukwoo’s limb.”
As soon as I heard his voice, I clenched my teeth, remembering what Taeui had said.
I felt like my chest was about to burst, overwhelmed by the mountain of questions I wanted to ask the person in front of me.
“…Should I say
it’s been a while
?”
Because the manager of Prism, Lim Seunghoon, was the person I had entrusted with my suicide note before I died.
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Translator’s Corner:
When MC replied a message to say “yes” or “okay”, he just typed “ㅇ”, kinda mean like “Y” (yes) or “K” (okay) in english. That’s why Yuda asking can’t he at least write it ㅇㅇ (Can be read like “yees”), and not the no-effort ㅇ ↩︎
Do Yuda is dropping the polite language in the previous dialogue. As Han Seungbeom is older than him, he’s not supposed to do that, that’s why MC asked why his speech is getting too casual. ↩︎
Someone is going to perish … and that’s me asdfghjkl No, I already expected everything to be dreadful in my hometown, but I didn’t expect it to be this dreadful???? Like … omg I need to fix the roof, the wall, the bathroom, cleaning everything etc if I want this place to look like a place at least liveable, but I just … dont want to do anything with.
My father was a carpenter you see, so everything in this house from the door to the chair was made by his own hands. After he left the house, it literally didn’t feel like the house I remembered at all. Everything is broken and no one fix them. This is why MC said it’s better to never have something than to have it only for it to be taken away later … my father was a very good person in my memory, so I was really lost when he suddenly changed that dramatically after remarrying. I’m pretty supportive of feminist agenda so I also don’t believe in only blaming the woman when the man is clearly at fault, but when I experienced it myself, it really hard not to resent the woman because the thought “If it’s not for her, he would never abandon me like this” is always there. I guess it’s proof that knowing the ideal right or wrong is different from actually put them in action.
ANYWAY THE INTERNET CONNECTION ASIDE, they ruined / threw away / etc the laptop tables that my father made for me (set with perfect high so I can use it while sitting in my bed), SO NOW I’M REALLY LOST BECAUSE IT’S REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE USING MY LAPTOP IN FLOOR WITH NO TABLES ??? also idk what’s wrong with my laptop or my phone wifi, but it occasionally keeps giving me “No internet connection” every 10 minutes. It never acted like that with wifi, so idk why this is happening when connected to my phone hotspot. My mobile data connection works just fine in my phone wtf
All this problem could easily be solved if I just went to the local city library … except it’s far, and idk whatever happened during the years I left this place, but rather than improving, THEY JUST WENT WORSE. NOW THERE’S NO PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION AT ALL? Back when I was in high school, I used bus every day, AND NOW THERE’S NOTHING LIKE THAT??? IS THIS EVEN ILLEGAL??? I’M REALLY GOING TO WITHER AWAY IF I STAY HERE FOR LONG???
Okay enough life update essay from me. About MBTI, Koreans are really really into them … they have a lot of fun quiz like the one Zen did. It’s just for fun so it’s not to be taken seriously though. For example, there’s this famous site (this site has a lot of quiz like these, but only a few are translated to Eng). Try it if you have time and tell us the result … https://ktestone.com/oneSidedLoveEng
If you saved the photo, it will be named with MBTI type. That’s what Zen talked about. Anyway, here’s mine.