I need to tell you that I’m sorry…
That our memories…
They hurt.
I am so very, very sorry…
That we couldn’t make it work.
I never meant to activate your heart…
I never meant to add to your loneliness…
I never intended to make you hate me…
I…
Just…
I just…
We met in the dead of winter.
On that corner.
At the center
Of this Universe,
But I was never meant
To enter…
When you asked me
That simple question,
And I answered,
That was it…
I should have never
Taken that letter.
I should have just
Avoided it…
When you wrote me
Telling me that you were lonely, This chapter was taken from g.com without permission.
I should have known that it was nothing serious…
That I was only
Meant to be a sexual adventure
Nothing meant for forever…
I wasn’t enough to sate that calling.
Your curiosity got the better…
You were just a little older.
More experienced and colder.
I was just too young
And not too much,
Enough to hold your shoulders…
I’m sorry that I didn’t leave.
I didn’t lie.
I couldn’t breathe.
I should have left.
You wouldn’t leave.
We both wore our hearts
On our sleeves…
I said;
“I wish I could understand you…”
As you lay there on my chest.
And you just kept on talking anyway,
Those moments were the best…
They were the tests.
The ones I failed.
I should have bowed out quick and bailed.
I should have tried to leave that jail
You couldn’t tell
That I was hurting just to love you
And I couldn’t let you go…
I had to beg the Universe
To show me where
I had to go…
And here we are.
So far from home.
Right back to strangers.
All alone…
Back to alone.
Back to the loneliness
That too well we both know…
Back to crossing paths
And crossing streets
To avoid the pain we sowed…
I need to tell you that I’m sorry…
That our memories…
They hurt.
I am so very, very sorry…
That we couldn’t make it work.
I never meant to activate your heart…
I never meant to add to your loneliness…
I never intended to make you hate me…
I…
Just…
I just…