Di Zhe walked to the roadside, intending to hail a taxi home, only to realize that he couldn’t find his wallet.
From the convenience store by the street, the aroma of freshly steamed meat buns and simmering oden drifted through the air. The smell curled into his nose and instantly awakened the hunger gnawing inside his stomach, making it rumble loudly.
Right now he was exhausted, sore, hungry and furious all at the same time.
Damn it.
Since he had already been drunk, why hadn’t he just blacked out completely and forgotten everything?
Why did he still remember every single thing that had happened last night?
The aching in his waist, the weakness in his legs and the countless kiss marks scattered across his body were all reminders of what had taken place,
The night he had dreamed about for so long, the night he lost his virginity, had indeed arrived.
However…
He had been the one who got fucked.
Damn it, damn it, damn it, damn it!
What kind of ridiculous situation was this?!
With nowhere to vent his frustration, Di Zhe angrily kicked a plastic drink bottle lying on the roadside. The bottle flew up into the air. Just as it was about to fall neatly into the nearby trash can, it struck the edge by the narrowest margin and bounced back out.
The filthy, foul smelling liquid inside splashed straight onto the cuff of Di Zhe’s pants.
Di Zhe’s face darkened instantly with anger.
What the hell! When someone’s luck turns bad, even garbage starts working against you!
He felt like he was about to collapse.
And his butt hurt so much.
Unfortunately, his streak of bad luck hadn’t ended yet.
At that very moment, a voice full of surprise and enthusiasm called out from behind him.
“Hey! Isn’t that Big Bro?!”
Before the voice had even finished speaking, several others chimed in immediately.
“It really is!”
“What a coincidence!”
“Big Bro, why didn’t you come to the internet café last night?”
A group of boys rushed over together.
Di Zhe turned his head and instantly found himself surrounded.
Heavens knew how embarrassed he felt at that moment.
Di Zhe had always been someone who cared greatly about his image. When he went out, he made sure to look confident and impressive, always accompanied by friends and laughter. Never in his life had he appeared in public looking this miserable.
Not to mention that he had just been thoroughly ravaged the entire night.
Two buttons on his collar had been torn loose and wouldn’t close no matter how he tried.
Shen Yandong seemed to like his chest a lot. Last night he had kissed and licked it again and again, leaving countless marks of varying shades of red.
Facing everyone, Di Zhe casually tugged at his collar as if it meant nothing, afraid that someone might catch a glimpse.
Inside, however, he was extremely nervous.
They probably won’t notice… right?
From the outside, it should just look like his clothes were a little dirty.
Besides, Shen Yandong was a beta. He wouldn’t leave any pheromones on him.
The boys’ gazes swept over Di Zhe, examining him from head to toe.
Very quickly they noticed that his complexion looked terrible. His steps were unsteady, his eyes slightly red and swollen, as though he had been crying.
This was clearly not the time for joking around.
The laughter gradually faded.
“Big Bro… uh… where did you go last night?”
“When you left earlier you were totally fine. I saw Sister in law helping you walk away.”
“Did you confess?”
Di Zhe really wanted to deny everything.
Unfortunately, that would sound far too fake. It would only make people suspicious.
So he simply nodded slightly.
“Yeah.”
He didn’t offer any explanation.
But judging by his miserable appearance, even a fool could guess that things hadn’t ended well.
All of them were high school boys with almost no dating experience. None of them really knew how to comfort someone properly. They spoke awkwardly and clumsily, words tumbling out one after another.
“There are plenty of fish in the sea. With your looks and your sincerity, Big Bro, if he doesn’t appreciate you, someone else definitely will sooner or later.”
“Shen Yandong really doesn’t know what’s good for him. Just because he’s a little good looking, he dares to act so arrogant.”
“Honestly, Big Bro, you chased him for two whole years and he still didn’t soften toward you. You really shouldn’t have kept going. I’ve wanted to say that for a long time.”
“Hey, stop it! Why say something like that right now? Big Bro’s feelings just got crushed, he’s already miserable enough…”
The noise of their chatter made Di Zhe’s headache even worse.
To be honest, he didn’t even feel like standing there surrounded by people trying to comfort him.
All he wanted was to go home as soon as possible.
He wanted to wash himself clean, lie down under a comfortable, warm blanket and pretend that none of this had ever happened.
Even now, Di Zhe still felt mentally dazed.
Where exactly had things gone wrong?
How had he, an alpha, ended up being fucked? He felt terrified at the thought of anyone finding out. Panic churned through him like a storm.
The more his friends commented on his infatuation, the more ridiculous he felt.
In the past, whenever they teased him, saying he was a bit of a simp, he had stubbornly refused to admit it but now… he had to concede it. Yes, he had been a simp back then.
But he had worked so hard to play the role of the loyal “dog” just so he could take the dominant side! He never imagined he would be on the receiving end.
They had it all wrong. They assumed Shen Yandong was cold and unfeeling, that he had rejected his confession.
Not at all. Shen Yandong had accepted his confession and then… they slept together. He had been the submissive party.
Ah… how many times had he replayed that in his head already? Enough! Stop going over it!
Before, he had feared losing face if his confession had been rejected but now… of course, being discovered as the submissive was far more humiliating!
Let Shen Yandong be misunderstood if people wanted to misunderstand. Who cared? Di Zhe’s mind was a tangled mess, thinking irresponsibly like that.
He didn’t want to make sense of any of it. He only wanted to escape, to find a place to hide.
“Betas are like that, stiff, cold, boring. Big Bro, I know a few cute omegas, I can introduce them to you.”
“The best way to get over heartbreak is with a new romance.”
Someone suggested.
Di Zhe snapped back to reality, shaking his head. “No.”
He was drained of energy. The usual spark in his eyes and the liveliness in his expressions were gone, replaced by a blank, dull look. “Not in the mood,” he muttered, head lowered.
He mumbled almost to himself: “Ah… youth… such a regretful name.”
Even saying it aloud, it sounded painfully… adolescent.
No one dared say anything further, only sighing quietly.
Sure enough, being a simp never ended well. Simps, no matter how loyal, end up with nothing in the end.
After bidding farewell to his classmates and borrowing a little money, Di Zhe hailed a taxi and headed home.
His parents were shocked when they saw him. “What happened?”
Yesterday, he had left home excited and neatly dressed.
Today, he returned looking like a beggar, dirty, disheveled, smelling strongly of alcohol, his expression a clear portrait of having suffered a huge blow.
Di Zhe didn’t want to explain. He muttered vaguely, “N… Nothing.”
His mother, curious but cautious, asked, “Are you hungry?”
Di Zhe’s eyes watered. “Yes… very hungry.”
“Mom will make you a bowl of noodles. Sit in the kitchen and wait, drink some milk too, I’ll warm a cup for you.”
Everyone has been young once; you can tell when a child has taken a hit in the matters of the heart.
His father tried to chat with him a little but Di Zhe’s mind was elsewhere. He spoke vaguely, carefully avoiding the subject.
His mother, seeing his distracted state, prompted him, “Don’t you see he’s upset? Stop bothering him with questions. Go help Jiji run the bath water. Make sure he can soak properly and don’t forget the bath salts. Do you remember what kind of bath salts Jiji likes?”
His father added, “Of course I remember. I haven’t lost my mind yet. Jiji likes the orange scented ones.”
After eating, Di Zhe took a shower and crawled into bed but within minutes, he remembered something important and got up again.
He approached his parents with resolve and said honestly, “Dad, Mom… I don’t want to apply to Z University anymore. I want to change my college choice.”
His mother didn’t even question him, just smiled gently. “That’s fine.”
Actually, Mom’s heart ached a little now. TAT
Being a civil servant would have been so good… but even if her child couldn’t become the ultimate filial son of the family, it didn’t matter, he would still be their precious treasure.
Dad said, “Or you could apply to the nearby L University. Study business, it’s close to home and when you graduate, you can come back to work.”
Di Zhe felt completely uncomfortable from head to toe.
Right now, he just wanted to run as far away as possible. How humiliating! He wanted to live in a completely different world.
Seeing his reluctance, Mom quickly tried to smooth things over. “It’s okay, Jiji. You can go wherever you want to study. You’re grown now, it’s good for you to go out and see the world. You’re your own person and Dad and I just want you to be happy. Just know that if you ever get tired out there, we’ll always be here at home to support you. You can come back anytime.”
With that reassurance, Di Zhe went ahead and changed his college application choices.
He even contacted his homeroom teacher, vaguely asking them to keep his school admissions information confidential.
He didn’t care anymore!
The day after graduating from high school, Di Zhe slept in deeply, fully exhausted. His parents packed a suitcase for him, helped him get organized and even bought him a last minute travel tour package.
They sent him off abroad to explore the world, a little freedom in his hands, a fresh start for the boy who had just endured so much.
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ChaptersChapter 1 · Love at first sightChapter 2 · Lack of discretionChapter 3 · ShamelessChapter 4 · UnreasonableChapter 5 · PerseveranceChapter 6 · College Entrance Examination EndChapter 7 · Graduation dinnerChapter 8 · Confession nightChapter 9 · Pressing in step by stepChapter 10 · Enough is enoughChapter 11 · A huge blowChapter 12 · University start dateChapter 13 · Roommate meetingChapter 14 · Relentless harassmentChapter 15 · I’ll pick you upChapter 16 · It’s my vulnerable periodChapter 17 · Voluntary datingChapter 18 · Open your heartChapter 19 · Obedient to allChapter 20 · Not a virginChapter 21 · Swear to love meChapter 22 · Youthful DaydreamsChapter 23 · Teenage ThoughtsChapter 24 · EmptyChapter 25 · Extremely anxiousChapter 26 · Too lazy to struggleChapter 27 · From now on